emotionless attitude

2008-05-16T23:22:00.002+08:00

2008-05-15T22:25:00.006+08:00

wah lao eh i bth wewe sia! the first thing she commented after reading my blog was that i didnt blog about her Zn & YZW! eh this is my blog leh, so am i supposed to publicise for her?! LOL, i read mary's blog, and i saw my name inside her post, hurhur, im just easily amused luh. wewe was arguing with me whether her baby with YZW or my baby will be better...
wewe "imagine me and YZW child, know how to dance & play guzheng"
me "-___-"
wewe "LOL what can be better, wah, life is good~"
me "mine also not bad leh, basketball & climbing, and eat!"
wewe "yucks luh, should be forever eating bah!"
me "yeah, >.<"
wewe "our child will be damn good, what to do, good genes"
me "LOL, okay, fine!"

LOL, i really wanna laugh at WT! did you people see the red italics "dont focus on the bottomline" in the post below?! WT tagged "don bluff! i tot the bottom line was the topic sentence? hahas." i know what he meant, but my that italics was actually referring to what the speaker had said to us today, and he interpreted it wrongly! im not asking you people to not focus on my bottom lines luh! WT you very funny, really! HAHAHAHA! i didnt thought of the link until i asked him on msn.
me "the bottom line was the topic sentence? what you mean?! EXPLAIN."
wt "you look at your latest post, then you go infer, haha"
me "eh say luh, you mean him?"
wt "dont know, no comments, haha"
me "...wah lao you dont explain to me i dont let you see my blog liao"
wt "wah lao, dont so niao leh!"
chey, in the end he didnt explain to me luh, luckily i smart enough!

就算你的心有一道墙，我的爱会攀上窗台盛放

2008-05-15T21:19:00.005+08:00

im wondering if i should change to live journal, i wanna blog more explicit stuff, HAHAHAHA! people, give comments whether i should change not. sighs, MYE first paper will start next tuesday! i shouldnt be blogging now but this is the only place i can relieve stress! burning midnight oil with wewe later, with a web-camera, cool huh. it'll keep both of us awake! PE is fun today! we played tennis with RX, LOL! he looked hilarious when he missed his serve, HAAHA! so funny luh, he damn paiseh! we are beyond hope, cant even hit the ball, sighs! most of the time we were picking up balls, LOL. jh is soooo nice luh, she helped me to plait my hair cos she suddenly had itchy hands. studied with ber & wewe after school, as usual, wanted to eat popiah after that but it was closed, sighs! food is still one of my motivation, hurhur. the school cafe's mocha is nice, i love the chocolate bread too! today CT we had an external speaker motivating us, LOL, JW is totally mesmerized by him, LOL, she even said she wanna marry him! gosh, though i agree that he's charismatic, but not to the extent of marrying him luh. i've put a song under my tagboard, it's in auto-play mode, listen to it, it's nice! i nearly died of disappointment when i realised he wasnt studying in school today luh! sobs~

dont focus on the bottomline

2008-05-14T20:56:00.003+08:00

just reached home, had dinner with darr. shared our school-life again, she never leaves the topic on ahem* and i cant seem to leave him out too! just opened my email inbox, been seeing mrTTH's emails daily reminding us about tutorial answers, staying optimistic & healthy, and i really appreciate the efforts made by him, i dont wanna fail such a good totor. i've gotta force myself to pass mathematics this time too! if not might get killed by tutor, though he is scary, but i must admit that he's really up to task & disciplined. im glad i've good tutors. i must work hard! guess i gotta burn midnight oil with wewe after my nap. wewe, wake me up huh.

class was super hilarious during economics lecture today i swear! we burst out laughing in front of all other classes, and gotten some tender-loving attention from other classes when mrTTH was busy fixing his laptop. like what wewe said, RX is really beyong hope! he ate my gummy without my permission! sulks- JW asked a gummy from me, i passed it to wewe, and wewe passed it to RX, RX was supposed to pass to sinne, but he just ate it up! whole class couldnt contain our laughter sia, so horrible luh RX! suemay was so idiotic luh! she came to my class to wish him birthday, and he blushed like a over-cooked lobster. i have a whole bunch of counsellors supporting me; wewe, sinne, ber & jh. wewe made a game-plan for me, but it was too scary so i dont intend to blog about it. wewe already thought of the ways to confess and "sntach" someone's kiss, which i've not yet thought about it and isnt that crazy over for. weeta is especially friendly towards me today, he waved "hi~" to me when he saw me outside bookshop, thereafter he called me back and said to me "eh today is your BIG day leh!" with this humongous hand gesture which is so-not-him.

below shows you how "romantic" wewe can be.
me "eh what should i write in the note huh?!"
wewe "hmmm~ if God made eve for adam, i believe i'm made for you."
ROFL, seriously, all of us nearly fainted during GP lecture. actually wewe wanna write that to her Zn or YZW but she has no chance so she hopes that i can fulfil her wish for her by writing that to him.

happy 18th birthday :)

2008-05-12T21:52:00.003+08:00

i just cut my hair yesterday, it looks sooooo ugly now, sighs! LOL! me & wewe slept at 4am plus can! only sleep for less than two hours! and i was late for school cos i woke up at 7am (-__-) sighs. gonna receive warning letter for thrice late sia, sighs! all wewe's fault! studied with jh after school after dinner, but she abandon me at 6pm, then after wewe joined me, cos her eyecandy inside the library, gosh, she really as flower-eat as me sia, she said out her eyecandy's name when he was just behind us! i nearly got a heart attack for her luh! she went out cos she was too paiseh, but in less than 10minutes she came in again cos she wanna her motivation back! HAHAHAHAH! damn funny luh, i pinched her flabby arms and she used her super longggg nails to scratch me when two of us were quarrelling about dont know what she anyhow tell the guys! Lam went to tell XL the thing that i told him during economics lecture, HAHAH, Lam be carefully of your pants next time, wear it tighter huh! you know what i can do right?! heehee~ idiot wewe jio me to burn midnight oil again but i rejected, im gonna sleep after this luh! my dark eye rings are bad enough. beauty sleep, come to me, LOL. as you people can see, im damn high today. though i've found a fake one, but i still prefer the original him. it's good to have a motivation, he keeps me going :)

you dont know how very important you mean to me.

2008-05-11T23:07:00.004+08:00

missing wewe, busy mugging her bio.

me & wewe got telepathy sia! we were supposed to meet for breakfast on saturday morning, i set my alarm at 620am somemore!
(phone rings...)
me "hello...zzz~"
wewe "eh you still sleeping huh?"
me "yeah..." (looks at the clock, gosh, 7am liao!)
wewe "ohhhh...so we continue to sleep luh, meet in school instead."
me "oh okay, bye..."
HAHAHAHAHA, both of us too sleepy & overslept, breakfast failed!
i think my temper is getting better, a little bit better i guess?! usually when people call me during my sleeping time, i'll just pretend i didnt hear the phone and switch it off, or "sleeping, call you back later!" LOL. think darr is the first woman who suffered my bad temper when i was asleep. in secondary two, i used to sleep in MT lessons cos i told the teacher im too tired, and he allowed me to. there goes this one fine day when im fast asleep...
darr, running to me, "eh hsuan i tell you something!"
me, shouting back "im sleeping luh! dont disturb me!"
darr, with a i-am-so-scared&shocked look "ohh, sorry."
i can never forget that moment, the scene of darr backing out! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

2008-05-10T21:10:00.005+08:00

try out this personality test, dont cheat if you want an accurate answer!
QUESTIONS, dont scroll down for answers unless you're done!
be very sure that your answers are really what you want!

1) put these animals in order of preference ; cow, tiger, sheep, horse, pig
2) write a word to describe each of them ; dog, cat, rat, coffee, sea
3) think of someone, who knows you and is important to you, whom you can relate to the following colours. name just one person for each colour, dont repeat the person ; yellow, orange, red, white, green.

ANSWERS, dont be tempted to see if you're undone!
1) this will define your priorities in your life
cow - career
tiger - pride
sheep - love
horse - family
pig - money
2)
your description of dog implies your personality
your description of cat implies your partner's personality
your description of rat implies your enemy's personality
your description of coffee is how you interpret sex
your description of sea implies your own life
3)
yellow ; someone you'll never forget
orange ; someone you consider a true friend
red ; someone that you really love
white ; your twin soul
green ; someone you'll remember for life

sighs! the one i really love is him, yes it's him, self denial is of no use, self assurance is futile, so what am i supposed to do?! LOL, i consider myself a true friend, HAHA! my twin soul is actually hongrui, wth luh! darr is someone that i'll remember for life, like duh! LOL. my description of my partner is actually frightening! so LOL. and my description of sex is bitter?! i do agree that my life is calm, at least till this point of time, hurhur. i think the test is only accurate to some extent luh!

2008-05-09T21:59:00.005+08:00

present wallpaper!

i dont know which way i should go, whether i should trust my own instinct or practicality. sighs. im depressed, stuck. i dont know what i should do, i dont know if i should continue pondering on the issue, i dont know the future, so how?! when did i start feeling this way? when did i start making that my focus?! maybe, maybe, i would just leave singapore, leave everything here, as it is.

bad news, i lost my file! that includes all my recent tutorials, my donation card, my whatever secret inside which i've totally forgotten. gosh, im going hare wire in school, im often lethargic & feeling sick, the most important thing is, im losing my appetite! how can i dont feel like eating?! it's soooo ridiculous! studied alone after maths lecture in the library, i was distracted by something though, sighs! wewe jio me for macdonald breakfast tomorrow morning at 7am before our economics lecture, idiot woman. she has dont know how many eyecandies, i cant even remember their faces! i dont know how wewe can divert her attention to soooo many guys at one go, LOL. i bet that wewe can work as a paparazzi in future, she goes around taking photos of eyecandies unknowingly, then she admire them during our study sessions, giving us that ohh-i-so-wanna-eat-you-up look. hurhur, dont kill me wewe. jiehui they all super mean to me! they always run away when i want to tell them things, hmpf~ they practically ran away! i needa talk to prevent myself from suffering from internal injury okay, so women bare with me please. seems like the tough PE programme is doing sinne bad, now she's running faster and faster and i cant catch her! anyway congrats to sinne for passing her 2.4km, some credits goes to us too! fridays and wednesdays are lovely, we had such long break today, ate yoshinoya for lunch before sinne & jh & ber went to popular for their shopping spree, trust me, they can really shop in a bookstore. again, i didnt had dinner, sighs. im forever flooding darr's inbox with messages that are more than five pages long, hurhur, she's really my personal diary sia!

dad called yesterday, and told me mum wanna bring me & bro & sis to japan this coming june holidays cos they've got free tour packages, i rejected that idea cos i would rather stay at home looking after the dogs or visit kayanne, im sick of japan, ohhh i miss taiwan sooooo much! i must go back after MYE cos my air-ticket is due in june!

idiot, if you dare to do anything against me, i promise im gonna do everything against you to get whatever i want and whatever you want, though i doubt you'll ever know what you want, you're merely wanting what others desire, how pitiful of you.

if you cant risk losing somethng that you badly want, you dont want it bad enough.
who wants to give their hearts to watch them fade away.

2008-05-08T01:08:00.002+08:00

im really really amused with the kind of dreams i have each night. last night, i dreamt of bestie persuading aunt not to send me to russia for studies, wth?! who will ever send their kids to russia to study?! hmmm, im suffering from some weird-dreams syndrome.

2008-05-07T23:50:00.001+08:00

from darr's blog "met darr for dinner, i watched her eat was too full with the brownie. then she called me half an hour later screaming she lost her file, ohman. so suay. then another hour later, she called and screamed into the phone again, this time i totally cannot help you at all, im so so sorry, lol. hugs, it'd be okay one sarahchenyuhusan (:"

SIGHS. met darr for dinner, and i lost my file at the shop! im dead, all my tutorials are inside, everything! missthen is gonna scold me tomorrow, gosh~ im just sooooo forgetful, shall put everything into my bag in the future, cant afford to lose anything! hopefull i can find it back! =( flower-idiot with darr was fun, LOL, we're somehow on the same boat?! ohhhh, God bless us! hurhur. economics ERP was horrible! super boring, so not productive, and it was freaking cold luh! when something i consider lucky happened, there's bound to be something else unlucky happening to me, on the same day! just finished phone conferencing with wewe & ber, gosh their preaching was helpful now im less afraid, i mean less, so im still afraid. these two women drifted away onto talking about Zn & fake YZW, gosh, i can seriously faint. i could have fainted before i called them, i rolled on the floor and banged my head against the cupboard to keep myself calm when i was talking to darr. yeah wewe you're right, drama do happen in real life actually.

i dont care, i'll persevere, it's my own business, and no one elses.

2008-05-05T22:29:00.022+08:00

gosh, later i needa use chlorine to wash my eyes! during training, yehan pulled down aslam's shorts, and all of us saw his cute little sexy sweet flowery pinkish stylish underwear. aslam, wear boxers next time please! photos are below!

qf hsuan sinne ashie hx ber wk lam wt (wt damn high!)

cheers!

in the middle of nowhere.

all very pretty luh!

-_____-

spot mary!

cheeky guys?!

wk the odd one out!

weeta, quanfeng, weikang

LOL!

hurhur~

pudding~

curly haired lam!

dinner!

in TRCC.

=))

2008-05-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

~~it's foolishness, i know. there's just no feeling. but how.~~

2008-05-03T23:12:00.005+08:00

today's SR's musical & college day, i woke up at 230pm when we're supposed to meet at 345pm at woodlands mrt! i rushed like mad, messed with my contact lens, and with the horrible period, eeeeeeeeeek! i had weird dreams every night i dont know why! i dreamt that i was pregnant last night when im having my period, how do i even get pregnant in the first place?! by breathing in the air that guys breathe out?! i dreamt of someone, all of weird dreams that will never come true or was illogical! cabbed to woodlands mrt cos i was farrrrr too late to take a train down, it costs me 17bucks, sighs! bought bread & slurpee, im truly a glutton i ate my way to republic polytechnic, though i didnt had dinner last night. saw wt & wk, we girls are shocked that they're in collar shirts cos we thought they would just come in t-shirts, LOL, they look nice i must agree. had lots photo-taking, many classphotos, we kept dragging the guys to take with us, can feel that they were stunned when we asked them to take with us. the musical was not bad, the lovestory part was hilarious i laughed my ass off. jiehui super cute luh, we waved to her a million times and she finally waved back, hurhur! wewe didnt bother to wave back at us, she dao us and went for camwhoring instead, tsk tsk. bernicehuang, i want all the photos! asap please! im so nice to ashie i helped her to ask ahem to take picture with her! i also helped huixin to ask, LOL! huixin shy luh~ i'll keep adding on to the photos.

i guess, you're worth it all.

关于你的一切我都好好收藏着
我一直都在你身后等待　等你有天回过头看我

2008-05-02T23:52:00.002+08:00

had economics lecture for two hours, wasnt too bad though. watched "the hottie and the nottie" with eugene in the afternoon, super hilarious i swear! LOL! went window shopping for a while and i feel like buying lots branded clothes & heels & shorts though i dont wear them often! hostelmate brought back a wild puppy of 2months old, soooo cute luh, furry furry~ we're secretly keeping the puppy, not letting the hostel aunt know, we're all gonna be deadmeat someday!

unwilling to settle for anything less.

2008-05-01T23:49:00.001+08:00

had dinner with bestie, thomas, shichow at hougang western food! super longgggg didnt see them luh! i ate black pepper steak and two plates of dimsum, they keep calling me fat cos i ate tooooo much, though im kinda used to people calling me fat, hurhur. had pool after dinner, im such a noob, though i really enjoy playing pool! the feeling is damn shiok when i shot in the balls. super congrats to bestie for getting into NTU with his SP diploma. i dont mind going to NTU too, LOL, provided i can even squeeze into any of the three universities.

2008-05-01T23:07:00.003+08:00

pain reminds us of the tribulations we went through
helps us to treasure the present and learn from the past
it tells us the possible happiness if things turn out otherwise
it gives birth to hope and the will to strive
for the happiness that lay before our eyes.

2008-04-30T23:40:00.004+08:00

really glad that we've 4days off from the draining school life, though i still have to go back on friday for extra lesson, but well, it's better than nothing. im so nice i let wewe use my smses cos she has overshot hers. dont know who she sms-ing sia, scully is Zn! Zn was in SAC too, alone with me & sinne! gosh, wewe will kill us LOL. me & sinne waited for jiehui & ber to finish their consultation from 130-345pm in the SAC! we wanted to sleep but couldnt fall asleep, i wanted to eat but was too full! i had spaghetti in the end still, LOL. im eating too much nowadays and my flat tummy is abandoning me, hmmm, nope, i think i've always been eating too much. urghhhh. im getting really really pissed when i see this irresponsible person in rocmoc, eeeeeeeeek, you freaking impotent basket whatever shit all the hell goes to you, i just dislike you to bits, too bad! today, i received a sms during training, and was blown off my mind for the rest of the day.

didn't i try hard enough? or is this my karma for all the things i've done to you in the past? i tried, i really tried, and im tired. i needa chance, just one chance to redeem myself, though we're never meant to be in the first place, we both know. why do human beings always try to play God and manipulate a desired fate of our own? Lord, i'll leave all to you, though i dont know what i wanna either. you knows it the best, i guess. one day i can walk off without a pinch in my heart, i hope.
爱不会逃跑，逃跑的是人。

2008-04-29T00:07:00.005+08:00

saturday's kbox with sinne & jh was awesomeeeee! those two women sang like 5songs for their 'last song', gosh! they not paiseh at all luh! jh wore horizontal strips while sinne wore vertical strips! they tried to outcast me from the start luh! two of them sang duet happily ever after but i sang those emo cheena songs, LOL! such a contrast. we studied too! but me & sinne ended up eating deserts and beehoon, LOL.

madwomen!

they never let go of the mics!

LOL, what a scene!

hurhur!

2008-04-27T00:26:00.006+08:00

had farewell today at kenny's condominium's function room. i must admit that the function room is kinda pathetic? though i still appreciate the juniors' effort. good luck to the new ex-co members! the catering was alright, too little deserts though! i like the salad & cheesecake & broccoli! hurhur! MrYong gave all J2s a table medal and J1s gave us a tile each! those who dont have can get the photos below.

lianne mary maryam hsuan azu

informal

ROCMOC J2`08

2008-04-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

LOL, i ate soooo much food today im so guilty! my flat tummy is gone! had laksa for break with wewe they all, they've been addicted with YongDaoFu for days! we had lunch at hainanese village that hawker centre! gosh the LorMee is delicious! we couldnt stop praising the ingredients luh! even the egg was like gosh, heavenly! $2.50 only somemore, cheap sia! had lots of other snacks after that it was uncountable luh! wewe spent like $9 for lunch alone! sinne gave up after her LorMee cos it was simply too filling!

class was funny during GP! like duh?! shasha put watermelon skin on weeta's chair and in PY's desk! tsk tsk! wewe made a fool of herself too!
RA "hmmm, so who is mixed in the class?"
yana "nariya is mixed chinese & malay!"
mary "huixin is mixed thai chinese!"
wewe "heehee, i mix ToaPayoh & Serangoon!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, ROFLOL!

2008-04-23T22:09:00.008+08:00

i've been reaching home like 10pm daily? often stayed back in school with wewe jh sinne ber to finish up my work, somehow i feel that i can get things done faster in school, provided we dont gossip or chit-chat, LOL. i used an hour to plan out my GP essay, gosh, RA will kill me. hopefully i get more content marks! im now stuck at the 3rd point and only intend to finish it tomorrow afternoon which is the deadline, im gonna be sooo dead. did work with wewe after training today, super tired, the horrible PT, gosh. i didnt have dinner until 11pm and i ate instant noodle! sighs, ohh daddy im ill-treated in singapore! classguys drew on our abandoned notice board, freaking funny, all the discrimination, LOL! i didnt know classguys can be sooo artistic.

for those interested in the wrestling video on shasha, JJ, aslam, yehan, kindly visit here, go and find the 2nd one yourself, it's in my video list which apparantly only a total of 3videos.

self entertainment.

husan & jiehui

wewe was outcasted by us, hurhur.

shasha!

LOL!

2008-04-20T19:27:00.011+08:00

saturday's study session with wewe & sinne was definitely fun! studied at concourse at first, and moved to SAC in the afternoon. two of them keep irritating me, i got so affected i couldnt get things into my mind too! though i managed to understand AE, hurhur. wewe brought her cheese cookies while i brought my fish-bites. wewe is such a kid she kept pestering me for the cookies cos i didnt wanna share with her. HAHAHAHAHAH, and wewe never stopped whining and treating her cheeks like some playdough until i gave her the cookies. it's really hilarious seeing wewe playing with her own cheeks, LOL.
wewe(pulls cheek) "i want to eat luh, i want to eat! i want luh!"
wewe(squeezes cheek) "eeyerrr, i want the cookies! i want to eat luh!"
sinne "ermmmm. wewe really want to eat oh?"
wewe(monkey-faced) "i want to eat luh! wah lao! i want leh!"

okay, below is my funeral. now i know wewe is not a true friend! she was actually giggling!? these two drama queens below should have joined podium luh, such good actors. i was all the time sleeping and they can still produce such good 'clips', not bad huh, ohh on a side note, sinne was the photographer, LOL. the red 'gong' at the back is for what huh? to celebrate my death is it?!

2008-04-18T23:09:00.010+08:00

slacked with ber, sinne, wewe at GZ room after dismissal, we played the wooden stack-up game i brought, and they started using the blocks for domino, damn creative luh. wewe &ber camwhored, gosh, so damn scary can. i was soooo hungry i dont even have energy to stop them from their nonsense luh! after lunch, i slept in GZroom while they camwhored again, this time they even took me as a corpse and tried to squeeze me into the guzheng box! i was nearly murdered luh.

training at climbAsia today. darian slept soundly beside me when we were on the bus, of cos i paparazzi-ed! LOL. i love to boulder, hurhur, especially those balancing routes! managed to finish a ridiculous move, ohh it's soooo fun! but when i tried the second time, i couldnt anymore cos i was too tired! had dinner with a bunch of J2s including some J1s, walked from farrer park MRT to somewhere opposite simlim square! the journey seemed never-ending! serangoon road is damnnnn freaking long luh! im so glad it isn't as crowded as those times i sat in hongrui's car. we looked like some tourists that came from some cheena place, totally amused by the environment around us! the things there kinda cheap too! can go there for shopping soon?! shasha was the one leading us, like duh?! had dinner in some very-limited foodcourt that seems to be closing down soon, though the food there seems alright. some of us managed to buy the $0.50 fruit juice before the stall closed down, darren was the lucky one, he got the fresh mango juice! after dinner most of us walked to little india station and headed home, shasha took to kovan too, this is peer pressure! LOL. we like some kind of monkeys inside the train, laughing and talking crap non-stop, of cos part of the horrible laughter came from me, HAHAAH! it is obvious that these people will make fun of me and him at times, but as long as it doesnt offend then i wont dispute them. all of us alighted at hougang except darren, yehan, jf. darren knew he was the lightbulb so he alighted with us too, and boarded the same train at another door, LOL.

mary "so you're a Jew?" (she pronounced Jew as 'zhu'=pig)
ric "yup!"
mary "so Jew is both a religion and race oh?"
ric "yup!"
yehan "so your parents are Jews oh?"
me "so your parents are apple juice or orange juice huh?"
all "HAHAHAHAHAHAHA......!"

two hearts can make all things work.

husan sinne ber wewe

heehee, dont kill me darian!

the noisy ones!

monkeys!?

if we hold on together, our dreams will never die.

2008-04-16T20:56:00.006+08:00

what a contrast!

DEAD TIRED. SR Olympics today, was having headache for the whole of last night until now! didnt even get a good sleep, furthermore have to go to school early for meetings all that. whatever, everything is over now! i like the committee though we dont know each other well, i dont even know their names seriously, but working with them was really enjoyable, including mrTeng. gotta write reflections about the event though. we were totally stunned today when mrTeng said we've to go onto the stage, oh this totally sucks, i hate such attention, i dont need such attention, unlike someone, HAHA! wewe disappeared when i was busy messing with those documents, she must be hiding somewhere eyeing on her Zn, tsk tsk. JH is doooooper nice luh, she helped me lots lots today! sinne & me slacked along together simply because we were too free! ber went to highjump & shotput, gosh, so damn sporting luh, i cant throw or jump or run for nuts! saw WT ran, im damnnnnnnn impressed with his style of running, hurhur! ashie & mary joined so many events, they are never tired, LOL. classpeople joined tug-of-war, but lost, like duh?! the opponents all damn big-sized relatively. just had a quarrel with hostel aunt, wth, im definitely not those easily-bullied people and obviously i wont give in to you just because you think im filthy rich, it's my parents' money, not yours.

getting irritated, you're really a typical singaporean, super kia-su, with no manners! please change yourself, in case others might think your parents didnt teach you well. i hope you'll seriously change your kia-su attitude, cos it's too obvious.

i know im missing someone, but im unsure of who. i no longer have a motivation in SR and this totally sucks. i wish im near him, or whoever that gives me a meaning to all these crap.

2008-04-15T22:49:00.003+08:00

hurhur. there will be no lessons tomorrow because it's SR olympics! hurhur. studied with wewe jh ber sinne in SAC after school, wewe couldnt stop laughing to herself when she saw Zn outside, gosh, she's definitely more flower-idiot than me, she couldnt stop cursing that idiotic girl whom snatched her Zn away, LOL! the study session was actually a chit-chat session! wewe & sinne super idiotic couldnt stop laughing to themselves and made a fool of themselves in the SAC! me & jh pretended we didnt know them at all, hurhur. i slept from 7pm, and when i woke up at 730pm, they were heading home already, so damn not productive today, sighs! and now, im heading my bed! nighties!~

you're no longer my one&only. too bad.

2008-04-14T22:42:00.000+08:00

flames to dust, lovers to friends
why do all good things come to an end.

2008-04-13T22:39:00.006+08:00

so cheeky huh.

idiot! you think you damn cute is it?!

hurhur. just came back from johor with hongrui & his parents. shopped from 1pm to 7pm non-stop, super tiring can, had lots lots lots of food! pizza, roasted chicken, takoyaki, dimplings, papa-roti. i bought grapes from the supermarket back, so weird. hoho, i also bought a wooden game, shall bring to school to play with chasspeople during free periods! can distress leh!

yesterday went to J8 with hongrui, saw bernice&lance, both of them damn siao eh, shouted my name on the escalator when i was busy chatting with hongrui, so damn AA luh! after we shopped finished NTUC, two of them even waited for us outside J8! idiots! HAHAHAHAHA! hongrui kept laughing to himself after he saw bernice&lance, dont know what's his problem leh. me&hongrui wore shorts&slippers while bernice&lance wore till damn formal luh. meet-the-parents session oh?!

my bitter sweet temptation, where are you?!

2008-04-12T21:27:00.003+08:00

im so damn disappointed in mankind, oh shit, wth, gosh, how can people be so cruel to animals? sighs. my actions alone cannot help those poor seals and animals out there, we needa unite together to boycott these products.

2008-04-11T23:25:00.002+08:00

today's training was basically a slacking session, so many people were not in the mood to train after they got back their PW results. sighs, feel so sad for some of my friends. im actually very happy for my own result, but seeing their expression after they got back their results, i was quite down too. but people, i learned something from hongrui last week, he said im not mature enough because i dwell over things which cant be undone, though i did try hard to work on the issue. i think it applies to those who're sad over their results, if you did put in substantial effort for it, there will be no regrets.

had dinner with mary ben jaym mel bec jf. LOL. the dessert session was damn hilarious luh! we laughed until the whole shop stared at us, too bad mel & bec left early. we couldnt stop teasing jf & yh, there was also some chemistry between mary & jaym. they kept pinching each other's fats&muscles, ohh so sweet luh!

jaym "nah, the rest of the ice give you luh!"
mary "you think im a dog oh?!"
jaym "okay loh, dont eat loh."
mary "ehhh, i want luh!"
all "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA...!"

不是无动于衷，而是频繁到麻木。

2008-04-10T22:53:00.004+08:00

hurhur, studied in school with wewe & jh & ber until 9pm! wewe couldnt stop repeating her 'fated' meeting with Zn, gosh! GP consultation with RA was great! hurhur, got back my essay, i passed woohoooooooo! but RA threatened me to do better next time round, pressurized! PE was fun! played captains ball using basketball. me & jh & ber & ashie one team, owning sia! my shooting sucks though. shall play again next week! tomorrow we'll be getting back our PW results, sighs, hopeless.

jh "wewe why you always pinch your own lips huh?"
me "so easier for Zn to kiss ma!"
jh "huh?! why leh?!"
ber "aiyah, you wont understand luh! next time you'll know luh!"

let's work hard together to achieve our goal.
thanks for the patient love.

2008-04-09T22:25:00.005+08:00

training is fun today! bouldered with lianne & mary & jiaxing most of the time, i think i improved abit in the technique though still very weak, but im happy! jiaxing is very funny! he wanna call me 大婶(auntie) but he called me 大嫂(sis-in-law) instead, i didnt know i was his brother's wife, LOL. had dinner at kfc with ben & mel & mary, i shall not eat fastfood anymore, it's unhealthy and causing me throat discomfort, sighs!

maths test was horrendous! think most people dont know how to do the questions?! me&wewe was stuck at the first question already! i hate probability! GP consultation was urghhhh, sleepy?! RA was yawning away too, cant blame him cos he just got a newborn girl so he's lacking in sleep. tomorrow gonna meet RA for consultation at 6pm, gosh, my schedule is tight, no time for dates?! wewe & huangmeme & jh tried to be stupid during GP, they shifted their table away and isolated me! luckily i've sharp eyes so i spotted them doing these horrible stuff. they're so mean! they said im 小龙女 and he's 杨过 cos im older than him and i look older too! where got?! just 2months please, all these aunties bth them luh. in the morning when i met wewe & jh & huangmeme, i showed them the weird sms sent by mary, and they started...
wewe "eh you on top luh, you older!"
me "no luh, too heavy for me!"
wewe "eh on the treadmill also can leh!"
jh "ehhhhh...can luh, when the treadmill is off!"
sudden silence from them...
me "EH YOUR IMAGINING IT IS IT?!"
them "HEEHEEHEEHEE....!"
these aunties started imagining some things that i dont wanna know! dont tell me, i dont wanna know!

他的淡然一句做朋友吧　把我的心敲碎了那一霎
不是没有耐力和毅力　只是提起勇气已大伤元气
重新寻找生命里最大意义　说服我自己憧憬已成了回忆
i shall hold on to that hopeless miracle, or shall i not?
but, you're all that i wish for.

2008-04-08T23:21:00.002+08:00

urghhhh. i fell asleep during maths lecture today. getting really really tired and lack of sleep nowadays, i dont know why! missthen didnt come for geography tutorial, so classgirls played some number game while classguys played some abusive game?! i must agree that classguys are abnormal, some are still normal i guess? im such a glutton i had one apple lattice & one chicken pie & pink grava juice & free potato for lunch! thanks to huixin hurhur! yes people, give me more food, food! studied with sinne after school at cafe, that auntie 'summoned' qf&wk back to school after their dinner to teach us mathematics, wt also joined us after his soccer. i asked 2 stupid idiotic mathematics questions, gosh i really needa brush up my J1 work. sinne was all the time stuck with her poisson tutorial while she dragged wk along, i wonder how many braincells were killed during that free tutoring session. hurhur, shall study with sinne again in future! had dinner with sinne at hougangplaza, ohhh good chicken rice!

now im stuck with my IJC mathematics paper while there's maths test on DE&probability i might as well just jump down cos i dont understand much of probability. alright, at least i know one thing, the probability of me passing tomorrow's maths test is zero.

2008-04-06T21:09:00.001+08:00

幸福的风－杨宗伟
因为我永远只能一个人生活
孤单的快乐哀愁　偶尔可以伪装潇洒
只有心里慌乱起来自己喝酒

因为你只是一个美丽的偶然
吹淋我不经意降落
谁知道你不同　谁知道你不走
拥抱着我说终于找到了我

你看穿我的轮廓　亲吻我的奋勇　不在乎我曾经的错
如果不是你的款款温柔　还以为真爱只是一个传说
请相信我的承诺　虽然有点笨拙　但我看见幸福的风
如果我把我的手放在背后　愿不愿意牵着一起走

2008-04-06T20:41:00.003+08:00

假如－信乐团
一份爱能承受多少的误解　熬过飘雪的冬天
一句话能撕裂多深的牵连　变的比陌生人还遥远
一个人要看过几次爱凋谢　才甘心在孤独里冬眠
最初的爱越像火焰　最后越会被风熄灭
有时候真话太尖锐　有人只好说著谎言

为什么幸福都是幻梦　一靠近天堂也就快醒了
或许爱情更像落叶　看似飞翔却在坠落

假如时光到流我能做什么　找你没说的却想要的
假如我不放手你多年以后　会怪我恨我或感动
想假如是最空虚的痛

假如真可以让时光到流你会做什么　一样选择我或不抱我
假如温柔放手你是否懂得　走错了可以再回头
想假如是无力的寂寞

有一种倔强叫情有独钟

2008-04-06T19:27:00.006+08:00

在某個家庭聚會中，有四個信天主教的主婦聊到了她们的兒子。
A說＂我兒子是Priest(神父)，他走進大廳時，人們都叫他 Father(父親)＂
B說＂哼！我兒子是Bishop(主教)，他走進大廳時，人們都叫他Your Grace(閣下)＂
C說＂我兒子是Cardinal(紅衣主教)，他走進大廳時，人們都叫他Your Eminence(殿下)＂
D慢慢說＂我兒子身高 185公分、兩塊大胸肌、翹屁股、一張帥氣臉，他走進大廳時，所有的女人都叫『Oh～My God! 』＂

2008-04-04T23:09:00.014+08:00

LOL. training is damn fun today! J2s sat at bouldering area talking about M18 stuff, accusing YM for not being a 'virgin', LOL. celebrated steph&ric's birthdays with 2cakes! i was given the role of hijacking steph cos im the fattest! sighs~ when i tried to push steph to the mattress, she touched my neh!

after training is meet-the-parents session, met jh wewe hx at the concourse.
me: "eh got chrysanthemum tea not?! i need go 敬茶 leh!"
jh: "i got H2O luh, want not?!
wewe: "eh i got soyabean luh!"
me: "cannot luh chrysanthemum better, healthier leh!"
jh suddenly said: "一拜天地，二拜高堂，but you like 夫妻交拜 the most oh?!"
me: "NO! i like 送入洞房 the most!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH, joke of the day! ROFLOL! oh ya, i'll be going to market with wewe on 15april to shop for fresh meat to cook tonic soup for 16april! LOL.

had dinner with mel bec mary jaym ben jf at AMKhub NYNY. super hilarious luh the dinner. first time jaym&ben said they were very very full before they finished their dinner! mary bec jf never stopped camwhoring, horrible. i must say mary is really stupid, she took a video of all of us, in the end she exclaimed "ah! i forgot to take myself luh!" jaym ordered this humongous burger that costs $29, the burger is twice mary's face im not lying! jf couldnt help but to laugh to herself whenever we mentioned yehan, HAHAHAHA! mary&jaym are so scandalous luh! they keep having body-contact, urghhhh, so sweet luh! seems like some hot&juicy gossip is coming up! both jaym&jf brought home the burger and chicken that he couldnt finish, bth them luh! in the end we still ordered a $15 sundae! gosh, so sinful! let the pictures do the talking, im tired!

the plate is bigger than jaym's shoulder?!

jaym farted?! mary seems to enjoy it?!

Mr ACBC of 2008

sundae~

the two kids.

jf thinking of who huh?! laughing till so madly.

the girls!

jf so unglam, look at her legs!

look at the table filled with food!

bill : $168

2008-04-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

爱爱爱爱了几回　也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回　我却还在等待着谁能出现
伤伤伤伤了几回　也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈　我却还是学不会狠心对谁
男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

2008-04-02T22:42:00.002+08:00

call me 'YU HU-SAN' from now on! on monday when teacher called out our names for the PE network thingy in front of arts cohort, i couldnt find my name, in the end we heard yu hu-san, and classgirls burst out laughing, so damn AA luh, and make me so damn paiseh! HOHOHO. no homework today! but im gonna study economics later luh. sobs~

2008-04-01T16:24:00.002+08:00

im sick again, sighs. went back to the doctor who gave me the stupid antibiotics last week which doesnt work at all, if not why i kenna the virus again?! i hate being sick cos i've to miss lessons. wth. though i can get to sleep till noon. LOL. okay, i shall not allow myself to MC anymore. whoever wanna kenna the virus can get close to me~ physics tutorial i took the toilet paper to class and sneezed away the whole lesson, hurhur, so damn AA luh.

sighs, think classgirls regretted joining basketball as PE network, it's so damn boring though jianhao is really nice and patient with us. we thought we could form a team to 斗牛 with another class in the end everyone is from a7 except 2. gosh.

now im damn worried and pissed, mrTTH sms-ed me to say that he didnt get my CT DRQ corrections. but i handed in last week when i sat beside mary, i even reminded her i handed in! asshole. which fucking idiot took it?! can it be i so damn forgetful i didnt hand in?! fuck.

2008-03-31T23:22:00.002+08:00

HELLO, im back! today jiehui complained to me that whenever she checked my blog, it's still that same old post, oh well, thanks so much for the patronizing leh! i feel so important! alright, let me start off this post with a joke! hurhur. what is the worst name you can name a girl whose father has the surname of cheng?! the answer is... MONICA! because, 'mo-ni-ca-cheng' in hokkien means touching your ass! LOL. i laughed my ass off when ashie told me this on friday, totally amused can. i told my dad too and he was laughing like mad hurhur!

rushed to swissotel to meet dad after training on friday, both dad&sis were starving while waiting for me and they ate up some of the cookies that im supposed to give to mhr! gosh, mhr was quite upset cos he love the pineapple cookies from taiwan, everytime someone is coming to singapore he will force me to bring at least 2dozens for him! tsk tsk. for the whole weekend i was eating in restaurant every meal cos daddy loves good food, same as me hurhur! actually i dont have much to blog for the weekend cos i cant remember much, hurhur! paiseh luh. but i enjoyed my time with daddy, though he can be naggy at times, gosh. dad said we could probably move into our new house after CNY 2009! hoooooray! and in november im gonna go back to taiwan to choose my own furniture, LCD, sofa, bla bla bla! daddy&mummy has already chosen for me those things in the bathroom such as the toilet seat, sink, shower system, and my toilet seat is the most expensive among my family, hurhur! buttock is very important so must protect well! anyway, i heard that all the bathroom facilities costs about... maybe i should give you people a brief introduction of my houseplan?!
1st floor : living room, dining room, kitchen.
2nd floor : parents & my bedrooms.
3rd floor : bro&sis bedrooms.
4th floor : guestrooms & anything else.
each room will have a king-sized bed, though my room is rectangular so can actually put 2queen-sized beds. all the masterbedrooms will have their own bathroom, but only daddy's room will have a bath-tub. cos me&sis will be married off someday, so daddy&mummy dont intend to make our rooms too glamorous?!

2008-03-27T00:05:00.003+08:00

ohhhhhhh i've not blogged about my life for so many days! i bet some people miss my posts, dont deny luh, hurhur! jiehui keep asking me when i wanna blog leh, im so touched ah-hui! had badminton on monday, funny like duh! 6people playing in a court with 3shuttlecocks and just anyhow whack! i decided not to be as siao as jiehui thay all so just sat there and be amused by it. idiot wewe ankle sprained still can play, damn retarded! they even tried to play badminton with tennis racket, gosh, so horrible. damn AA luh! hurhur. classgirls mostly joined basketball for PE network, we sure own one luh, mary & jh know how to play, though im not sure if they're still good, HAHA! i will sure kenna hit by the ball and faint or something cos im afraid of basketball! it's so huge and damn heavy! i should learn to play basketball so i can know why is mhr & darr so crazy over this sport.

went lunch at pizzahut with mary ashie huixin sinne. the beef-something is damn nice, ohhh delicious with the cheesy layer on top, i love cheese! at pizzahut, i heard ashie calling huixin 'baby' i nearly vomited and lost my appetite please! urghhhh. had PT for training, feeling my muscles returning home, come back babe~ LOL. had dinner with mel bec ben jaym jf, we ate at the wrong curry-rice! urghhhhhhh~

gosh, i better start dieting though i've lost one more kg the when i weighed myself last week with my shoes on! 47.6kg now. people, some compliment please. but it might be due to my muscles turning to fats so i became lighter as a result, cos i've had 2buffets in the past two weekends! somemore, daddy is coming this friday which means i'll be having lots more good food and extra mass adding onto my body?! for the weekend, i will neither be going for rocmoc-camp nor staying in hostel cos i'll be staying at swissotel with daddy!

im soooooooooooo damn tired ever since term two started. im flooded with essays, corrections, tutorials daily. i sleep an average of three hours daily. no wonder im sick and had 2days of MC, the sickening sorethroat with the unlimited supply of phlegm and the once-in-a-while migraine. give me a break, please. XL was so not-sympathetic to me during economics lecture today, i was coughing and trying to stop my running nose badly but he said i was noisy! but thankfully he offered me his packet of tissue! hurhur. i saw mrTTH looking at me when i was sneezing away, LOL.

good times are hard to forget, but somehow it will be forgotten.

2008-03-25T15:27:00.002+08:00

okay, im totally disgusted by someone, i can nominate her for 'the most pitiful thing of the year', hurhur. you're simply too pathetic, and would die just to get the attention of people especially guys, please have some self respect before others respect you yea? and dont go around trying to stick to ANY popular guy just because you wanna be in the centre of attention too, it only shows how needy you are in terms of attention. dont try to act pathetic/fragile/whatever shit, although some of us know you are really pathetic, but dont disgust me by doing more, okay?! i think i know why you're doing all these, because you cant get the attention you want at home because you're neither the prettiest, smartest or the heir of the family. i can totally understand that.

2008-03-20T23:05:00.003+08:00

another tiring day. PE was fun! now we're getting our rewards for getting gold/silver for napfa! played badminton with jiehui & mary & ashie. jiehui & mary damn funny when playing, ashie & me laughed our ass off please. i keep banging onto the invisible net, so idiotic luh. after PE had the horrible GP essay test in the freaking dusty classroom, bet i'll get asthma soon. totally screwed up my essay, think RA's gonna get disappointed again, i hate GP! i cant believe alevel is just 7months away!

okay, im kinda thankful for my physics, at least im not getting all Us for my CT result slip, though either way my result slip wont appear any better! bleh~ CT period was definitely hilarious, JJ & lam & sha were having riots while me & wewe were quarrelling about her fats. she dont let me pinch her flabby arms! ohh she's gonna flood my tagboard very very soon! actually wewe's arms not flabby at all luh. hohohoho~ class made funny jokes about me as usual, even me laughing loudly they can link to something else, sobs! classguys especially JJ & lam & sha are damn sadistic! they molested elmo! i wonder who will they marry next time?! hurhur! stupid wewe commented that she prefer my blogging format last time instead of writing in chunks now, i cant help but to write in chunks cos im tired of separating the paragraph into different lines! wewe, get used to it, alright?! change is the only constant, hurhur!

2008-03-18T23:12:00.003+08:00

alright, term two started! wasnt feeling well these days, yesterday i even took early leave after economics tutorial cos i cant concentrate during mrTTH's lesson at all, i swear im damn guilty, missthen nagged at me, as usual hurhur. cabbed home cos my back hurts like nobody's business i cant even sit straight.

OMGOSH. im seriously dead, dead. my common test is horrible! horrible! my guardian is gonna be summoned for parents' night soon! i improved in physics though, unbelievable, didnt expect myself to get 33.5/84 considering i left so many blanks and catch no ball on waves. but trust me, im strong in my electricity, hurhur, i love circuits! i just need 0.5marks more to get a S! classguys all look down on me, they dont believe i can get 30plus, hmpf! actually i dont believe it either. jiehui was so careless, she could have gotten 5marks more if she read the units carefully, her waves damn strong bth her luh. GP is horrendous, like duh?! failed terribly, with lovely comments from the marker. for economics, im kinda glad for my DRQ cos i passed! like first time during major tests?!

ohhhh, sis is back from taiwan, she brought back so many goodies for me, mum bought so many clothes for me, my mum deserves to get the best-mum-of-the-universe award while my dad deserves to get the best-dad-of-the-universe award considering how much they care and understand me though they hardly see me. sis passed me the redpacket that they gave me, i got a damn freaking shock when i opened it. US200. last year daddy gave me NT$3000, this year he gave me US currency. i wonder what currency he's gonna give me next year. of cos im not gonna spend the redpackets they gave me, gonna keep it neatly securely tightly in my secret drawer, hurhur.

this is what happened during GP today, hilarious.
wewe : "mr RA, are we gonna see you for consultation?!"
RA : "oh dont need to see me for consultation... move into my house instead!"
i guess the whole of a7 except RX gotta move into RA's house.

2008-03-17T00:58:00.003+08:00

给未来的自己－梁静茹
找一个人惶惶相惜　找一颗心心心相印
在这个宇宙　我是独一无二　没人能取代
不管怎样　怎样都会受伤
伤了又怎样　至少我很坚强　我很坦荡

夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海　多少人多少种无奈
在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害　一觉醒来还有期待

我不放弃爱的勇气　我不怀疑会有真心
我要握住一个最美的梦　给未来的自己

一天一天　一天推翻一天
坚持的信仰　我会记住自己今天的模样

存爱－杨宗伟
爱情是一本存折零存快乐　每天查询有多少的余额
你设下难猜密码把自己锁著　既然给你的我就不会舍不得
我没借口去预支你的自由　也没理由为了偿还爱的承诺放弃你的天空

爱你很多很多　只想存给你快乐　却提了更多寂寞
存爱存在记忆中　回忆太让我富有　思念却让我贫穷
还有多少青春可以挥霍对爱的执著　就让泪水轻轻慢慢流　再蓦然回首

2008-03-16T00:56:00.002+08:00

理智的温柔－深白色二人组
当我用完了快乐的时候　你把你自己的让给我
当我说我还想要更多　你从来没有皱过眉头
当我又伤害了你的时候　你只是轻轻的抱着我
只是等我说我不再需要你的时候　你沉默的让自己挡住我们的天空

你给过我的真的太多　我响应你的其实没有
想想我不可能有任何埋怨的理由　所以到最后只能这么说：
是你太过理智的温柔　让我拥有太多借口
纵容自己太过任性的追求　自由飞翔自己犯错　到无法回头

所有的温柔对我都不算什么　因为我没有你陪着我到最后
当我用完了快乐的时候　现在我只能自己难过

2008-03-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

went NUS openhouse with mhr & his mum. he woke me up like 10plus idiot him i was having such good sleep i shouldnt have checked my phone luh. reached NUS around 12plus, we got lost inside the medicine faculty which was totally deserted cos the openhouse was at another area. me & mhr were super hungry cos his mum wanna listen to those talks. i wanna go arts&social sciences though his mum dont encourage. maybe i should consider accountancy too. nehmind, i can take my time to think about it hurhur. darr was there too but didnt see her at all. we headed home, took a nap before going for dinner at rendezvous hotel, the buffet was damn good with all the freaking nice desserts especially the durian cake! ohhhh yummy. urghhhh feel guilty letting his mum treat again, his mum treats me really well LOL. i shall feed her with more secrets about mhr, hurhur. ohhh he cant kill me cos he dont know my blog hurhur! sighs im freaking sad cos my bank left like $56?! im dead meat, spent like $150 this week i feel so damn guilty luh. nehmind, tomorrow can get allowance again, hooooray!

when you look me in the eyes, i catch a glimpse of heaven.

2008-03-14T23:05:00.002+08:00

had training, the weather is freaking horribly hot i swear im totally desperate for wind during PT. the PT lead by XXXXX was horrendous i dont know why. maybe cos i was moody & too tired & no mood to train?! the J2s were slacking at the back during PT, we still did some though. after training went to have dinner with JJ yehan jf mary ben. hurhur. we keep teasing yehan & jf, you know why?! i bet you people know why HAHAHAHAHAHA! when i was gonna board the bus with jf & yh to hougang, JJ told me the bus cannot go to hougang and i realised why! cos JJ wanna let yh & jf go home alone! LOL. i dont know what happened after both of them went home together, i really dont know, i swear! i realised yehan has the same initials as me! CYH! hurhur, CYH rocks! very very depressed now, dad called to tell me he's coming on 27march to visit me for the weekend which means i've to accompany him and cant go for rocmoc-camp. sighs~ i cant get to know all the juniors. but no matter what, i still wanna accompany my daddy! i've not seen my dad for like dont know how long.

2008-03-13T23:12:00.007+08:00

sighs! suffering from insomnia nowadays! im always very very tired, but just cant fall asleep! i only fall asleep when the sun rises, and have to wake up early for training or lesson! sighs! i wanna go buy sleeping pills liao. but what if i eat too much and died?! LOL! remembered something very funny, yesterday when we changing for swimming, i took off my shorts in front of melissa thay all, and she thought i was wearing a boxer when it's a panty, hurhur. so cute luh all the panties my mum bought for me from taiwan. just now mum called me to tell me she bought me a damn nice shirt and mini-shorts that costs $100+ each, but there's a 70% off, hurhur! i love my mum luh! and yes yes, of cos i asked her to bring me my favourite food! food, ohhhhh!

after maths lecture today, me jiehui mary sinne ashie huixin headed to suntec for kbox. had the lunch session again, the food not that nice though, maybe cos before that i had laksa and was damn full. i shall not go kbox for next half a year, getting sick of singing, my voice is getting from bad to worse arghhhhhhh. ashie sounds damn R&B, LOL. first time heard huixin sing, i seriously think she suits singing lullaby!

hmmm. just now i was talking to my friend about edison&gillian. my friend said gillian is actually very innocent, and it's all edison's fault for influencing her until she's so... porno? but i doubt so. from all her expressions she showed in those horrible photos, i think the real-her is so different from how we perceived her to be. although many said im like porno or what, but at least i speak what i feel about pornography & sexuality and raise my doubts. unlike people who pretend to be innocent in front of friends yet they surf pornography or have horrible imaginations about porno.

2008-03-12T22:21:00.005+08:00

bad bad weather today, sighs. went to kovan pizzahut for lunch with mel reb jaym ben mary jf. hurhur. the guys can really eat, they even wanna order a couple meal, bth them. headed to jurongeast swimming complex, entrance fee is so damn cheap, $1.50 only! played the slides, wavepool, lazypool. somehow i always kenna bully, i just cant swim that well luh. played foursome-piggyback at the pool, horrendous! drank dont know how much water luh. mary is so damn mini we always cannot find her cos the float blocked her. HAHAHAHA! mary wore bikini sia, so damn sexy luh! i lent jf my spaghetti which leaves me with my SB, urghhhhhhhhhh. melissa is sexy in her SB too! wooohoooooo. the slides so fun luh! hohohohohohoho. had dinner at plazasingapura! after that had dessert, super nice! i love taiwanese food luh! next outing at wildwildwet! im really really broke! everytime go out with them i'll off my budget, sighs~

all of us =D

mel/reb & jf & hsuan

here comes the sissy uncle

the auntie inside thinks she's damn cute.

2008-03-11T22:42:00.009+08:00

i really need a break. im desperate for a break, a break for my heart. dont stir it up anymore, it cant take it. im tired both physically and emotionally, too tired to entertain anyone, anything. i wish i can be heartless, heartless for some time, to be just me, without a heart that feels, that hurts, that shivers. i dont wanna ceteris paribus, but i wanna hold everything constant. =((

went out with cerlyn polly darr. ate at dhobyghaut exchange that free flow of ice-cream & drinks again. super super full! cerlyn is really a glutton, she finished up all the food i couldnt finish. darr is really a kid, she wanna the present i gave to cerlyn & polly instead of her own dark chocolate, bth her. went to shop for my birthday present after that, it's like super belated, but nehmind, im okay with anything. hurhur. they bought me a dress & pendent! WHEEEEEE! im so happy i've gotten a dress already, though it's quite tight, hurhur. oh i must tell you people a damn funny joke! one day when i was gonna meet darr for dinner, she was like an hour late. she called me, asked me to help her withdraw money from her back account, using my atm card! tkb thinks that she can withdraw money from her bank account using any atm card. im totally amused, i swear! she was damn sure it's possible somemore! when she knew it was impossible, she asked "then why people so secretive about their PIN?" oh gosh, so if i use my atm card, and press in any PIN number and it manage to match with another account, i can withdraw money from the person's account?! -_____-

new dress, wheeee!

hsuan tkb

the green one couldnt stop admiring herself in the mirror

polly darr cerlyn hsuan

2008-03-11T00:25:00.007+08:00

施文彬－忘不了

翻开一本旧日记　记载着一段旧恋情　
每段都那么的甜蜜　往事历历在这里
曾看过多少的风雨　曾说过要到哪里去　
曾做过太多傻的事　爱过在这城市里

昨晚下了一场雨　
让我忽然梦里见到你躲在某个地方哭泣　
好想紧紧抱着你
有一次从朋友口中听到你消息　
我的心都在发抖　你是否孤身一人

分手两年后我还是想着你　
多久没有见过你　现在你住在哪里
只怕有一天我们都会老去　
只想留一点回忆　能够让我们依靠

我在一个咖啡店　透过玻璃窗往外望
你的人影无所不在　无心无魂的想你
为什么人总要等到失去才珍惜　
我来不及想告诉你　要永远不分离

at this moment, while listening to this song, who am i thinking of? i gotta be honest with myself, right? but how i wish i could open my own brain, dig out those memories with him, that occupies more than one-third of my life. one-third. six out of nine years i've spent in singapore is with him, with a guy i thought i would last but ended up nothing. nothing. this word is painful, too painful to someone who tries to secure a relationship she treasures so much so that she hurt herself. oh Lord, how i wish all those who are in love can last to eternity, forever, and i mean forever, not just merely giving empty promises. i've stopped believing in promises, and stopped giving promises ever since the time he broke all his promises. my heart returned empty. why push someone you once loved so much to her desperation when you know all she could hold on is you? why tear, i repeatedly ask myself while i couldnt stop the tears that run down my cheeks stubbornly. im sorry, for i couldnt be your friend. im sorry, i'll never forgive you. im sorry, im still that stubborn girl whom you've met seven years ago. but i wanna thank you, thank you for all the memories, thank you for all the love you've showered on me, thank you for making me who i am today. i know we both deserve someone better. i know that we'll always love each other like how we used to, and put those memories deep down in our hearts. love dont always come to a happy ending no matter how much we love, but sometimes, the best way to love is to part. and now, i've gotta move on, right?

2008-03-10T22:21:00.006+08:00

hmmm. went for training at 2pm. the guys had such fun time playing soccer&catching, can you imagine a bunch of young adults playing catching, aiming the soccer ball at each other's head in the rain, it's like wth HAHA! gym-ed, my arms can break anytime! but kinda happy cos managed to keep my fats burning, or muscles popping?! after training, the bunch of guys with me melissa rebecca jingfang went dinner at hougangmall longjohn, aiyooooo, fried food again. they couldnt stop gossiping and scandaling, but it's so funny i laughed until my tummy hurts and as if i've gotten asthma, LOL. think there will be many more scandals coming up, hurhur! right, yehan? oh i didnt something that is totally hopeless! i wanna throw away my drink at the bus-stop, in the end i was too blur so i threw in my handphone pouch! luckily it only costs my $1 and i didnt throw in my handphone as well, if not i gotta dig the dustbin in the public, and i might be the next most famous srjcian. phew~

guess who are they?!

2008-03-09T22:41:00.004+08:00

hmmm. cant believe it's march holidays now. i dont really feel very happy or excited but kinda sad cos i cant go back to taiwan with my sister. and i wish i could kill my sister oh gosh, she's now still stuck in singapore cos she missed her flight on saturday and is only going back tomorrow! why do i get such a blur sister who went to the wrong terminal? sighs, how i wish i could go back to taiwan! i miss my family luh. usualy i go back at least twice yearly, but due to the freaking alevel, i've to stay in singapore during holidays to mug, like as if i will do it daily?! i dont care im gonna go back during the june holidays cos my return ticket is due by then! if i dont go back the ticket is useless. and it's not as if my parents own a bank or what, so i shall not waste their money! hurhur. it gives me an excuse to go back in june hoooray! i've to start brainstorming a list of goodies sister has to bring back for me hurhur! i shan't ask if you people wanna anything from taiwan cos my sister is too blur to get it i think and i dont wanna trouble my parents. but for close friends i can try hurhur.

i slacked like not-my-business today. slept for the whole of afternoon, hurhur! good life huh. cooked tang-yuan at night, i handmade it myself, pro huh?! told you i could be a certified homemaker! wewe, you should just admit defeat luh, my tonic soup will definitely be nicer than yours luh! even mary said she wanna patronise my dinner daily in future! oh yeah by the way i changed my blog url, like again? cos i think it's rather irritating having so many teachers reading my blog and said it's porno or whatever when it's not, yes at times but not to the extent of scaring RA away. RA you can read my blog! =))

2008-03-09T00:30:00.004+08:00

urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! who are those teachers who told RA that my blog is full of porno stuff?! you can admit nehmind, im a good student i'll still respect you. oh gosh, my reputation is spoilt. RA is afraid to come my blog. LOL. ashie told me something and i was totally amused can. didnt know there are teachers that read my blog, why dont wanna tag?! so shy for what?!

went to melissa's house after i woke up to study. her dogs so cute luh, loves people to sayang her. i couldnt stop eating the peanut cookie hurhur. after that me & mary & melissa took bus to bedok interchange to meet jaymond & ben & jaslyn. ben's mum prepared lots of food! the fruit salad is delicious&healthy, next time im gonna make for my family! idiot mary say next time she'll stay near my house so after she work she can bring her kids come my house have dinner?! before that she even said she wanna hire me as her maid, wth HAHA! jaymond & ben can play piano very well! im so impressed! went to ben's church service after dinner, heard him sing, oh why didnt huixin go leh?! i bet huixin will marry ben on the spot if she heard him sing! hoho~ after the service we went to a nearby foodcourt before heading home. i reached home at 1130pm! thanks to melissa's mum for sending me home all the time! feel bad though cos oil prices keep rising.

2008-03-07T22:55:00.005+08:00

CT is over! after physics paper, me jiehui wewe went to sengkang for lunch, we all had claypot rice, so damn full! after that headed to hougang interchange for comic-session. idiot jiehui finish 12comics within an hour but i only read one, not too nice though. wewe has never read comics in her life before, she grabbed a comic that is full of violence & porno scenes, oh gosh! me & jiehui prohibited her from reading it, gave her a more decent one to read, shall not let her mind get more pollution! but wewe find the comic too boring, i think she still prefer porno ones bah. went back to school to see the release of the alevel results. im so proud of my rocmoc seniors! both my captain & vice-captain were the top arts students! one of them is cedarian too! hurhur. i wanna look up to her! so happy for them luh!

sighs. im really down today. really really down! his every action & emotion can just affect me so much. urghhhhhh. he is supposed to get better results! he deserve a better grade! was practically stoning & emo-ing during training. but kinda glad cos i finally get to exercise! training wasn't fun today cos im too tired & sick today although i still forced myself to go for physics paper, all thanks to menstruation luh!

after training, me melissa mary huixin ben jaymond justin & more went for dinner at kovan. nice food, though i dont really have much appetite. sighs~ all because of him. crapped so much with the J1s, tomorrow going for ben's service performance somemore! and before that going to meliss'a house to study & play with her dogs!

melissa huixin mary jingfang hsuan

2008-03-06T22:36:00.004+08:00

hmmm. today i managed to talk to my ex-boyfriend's ex-girlfriend, really happy seeing her getting along well with her present boyfriend! for those who are single & available, mary is the best example, enjoy your single life now! it is times like this i can stick on to my darr & disturb her all i want & waste all my smses on her & shop/eat like mad with her. recently or always darr has been commenting that i should stop wearing sports-bra & my *** is small which i disagree! it is not mine being small, but hers being far too big, and i mean far~ okay she's gonna kill me again.

stupid darr said wanted to meet me in the afternoon cos she got 2hours break before her training, we met at hougang. and that left us with 1hour to catch-up plus she was late so left 40minutes?! idiot. been meeting up with her at least 3times weekly?! getting sick of hougang luh! next time should go sengkang/kovan hurhur. okay i've a sudden craving for desserts now! like beancurd or whatever that is smooth & silky, hurhur.

hmmm. maybe i should just kill myself rather than going for physics paper tomorrow, since i've never passed my physics before & tutor said it's gonna be a difficult paper for this CT. i dont wanna walk out of the examination hall regretting studying it just like mathematics, cos even if i studied i still fail terribly, and i mean terribly okay. last year whenever i was inside the examination hall, i regret for not studying enough cos if i studied i would have known the answer, but this year is totally different! im glad for economics & geography, cos at least i crapped something out of it and hopefully i didnt write out of point which is very possible. as for GP, i managed to follow the time allocated & be heartless & took control of the paper! hurhur. all thanks to RA. oh im still anticipating to see his daughter's photo! i wanna see how dora looks like leh!

tomorrow im gonna be damn tired, i've paper until 10am, releasing of alevel MT results at 2pm which im supposed to go when i've no results to take, training at 330pm, after training like 6pm ashie mary huixin wanna go watch movie. the song lyrics i've posted below keep ringing in my head, it is really how im feeling now. sighs~

2008-03-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

如果你眼神能够为我　片刻的降临
如果你能听到　心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你　沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己　像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著　今晚多开心
最角落里的我　笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我　永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你　偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现　你会讶异
你是我最压抑　最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸　你会流泪
只要你能听到我　看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们　暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望　装得很风趣
我就像一颗洋葱　永远是配角戏
多希望能与你　有一秒专属的剧情

2008-03-05T20:49:00.010+08:00

that idiotic ashie didnt come school today luh, she got 3days MC until thursday cos she kenna sore-eyes due to overdose of pornography, she missed so much fun neh-neh-neh-bu-bu! had geography paper today, oh gosh i'll fail for sure. i've never passed my geography before anyway. totally give up hope on geography, although i still prefer it over history&literature. urghhhh, i just hate to write essays! i've no paper tomorrow! hooooray, can slack tonight! tomorrow i shall start chiong-ing my physics. sighs~

went to hougang kbox with mary huixin sinne jiehui after paper ends. jiehui is so damn sudden! she met us at bus stop, we waited like 15minutes for the long-awaited bus to arrive. before that we've been psycho-ing JH to go with us but she rejected, but when we were boarding the bus, she suddenly decided that she wanna go cos she wanna sing! hurhur. jiehui i know you cant resist me luh! the kbox 11am-2pm lunch session costs each of us $13.60, it comes with a lunch though, not bad! hurhur~ we've found 2 potential superstars after today's kbox session! they are CHUA SINNE & LOW JIEHUI! jiehui is so damn pro luh, she can sing a duet herself! sinne's singing is so damn gentle&soothing, i think markus will be mesmerized by her singing if he hears that!

after the kbox session, stupid JH pangseh us & went home. me sinne mary huixin headed to orchard to shop! oh gosh i think sinne & mary are the best examples for shopaholics! they should just buy orchard road instead. went to eat pastamania after mary was contented with her shopping & finally bought her shoes. i think if there's one day that mary can go to orchard road without buying anything, i can dont eat for a day = impossible!

"hmm... should i go kbox?!"

hsuan & sinne

mary & huixin

can you spot someone's cleavage?!

you dont need a juliet, cos you've got me.
you're all that i care, all for you.

2008-03-03T00:11:00.004+08:00

i know i shouldnt be blogging now, but i needa get away from my books for a while before i die in front of all the economic policies and terms. met darr for lunch, gosh she's so damn unlucky nowadays which i dont know why! was chatting with her in coffeeshop, we saw a small cute bird flew above her and stopped at one of the pillars while we continued chatting. the next moment darr realised a small green pile of wet substance on her thumb! she cursed like mad! hurhur!

darr's blog :
superlative: i'm most likely to get pooped on in a coffee shop by a small bloody little bird hiding innocently and chirping happily behind the lights on the ceiling while talking to my bestf.
i must admit that her description is damn good. LOL.

2008-03-01T23:45:00.003+08:00

had GP consultation with JH YW bernice QF. RA made us waited for 1hour luh! hmpf~ we used the time to do work instead of dozing off. he's gonna read my blog so i better be careful, hurhur! RA told us about his wife's pregnancy. we girls are very interested in pregnancy stuff! i think yw will get herself pregnant within months after her marriage, or maybe before?! hurhur! seriously i dont know who's dora, but since RA said his daughter looks like her, i shall check it out later, i find dora kinda cute with her bombarded hairstyle which is totally different from mine, hurhur! people please be careful with what your are gonna blog from now on, cos RA might check-out you people's blogs anytime anywhere, i bet he's gonna be a silent reader just like the classguys. during the consultation, i made a fool of of myself again, in front of RA & QF somemore luh. i shouldnt have talked about those stuff in front of guys! where's my image?! i should stop mixing around with yw cos she has been influencing me quite abit with her polluted mind, hurhur!
RA : "oh she gained 13kg during the pregnancy, it's normal."
YW : "but how come the baby is so light?!"
JH : "i think is cos of the water..."
me : "part of it goes to your neh also! it'll become bigger!"
RA&QF totally stunned, YW they all couldnt stop laughing.

went for lunch with jiehui&bernice at KFC, urghhhhh, so fattening. though im not afraid of gaining weight, but im still quite horrified by all the unhealthy oil consumed! gossiped with jiehui in KFC, hurhur. she's a very sensitive outsider with objective views. bth JH, always suddenly write in chinese in msn conversations, horrible girl. didnt meet darr for dinner cos i was too tired so i went home to sleep! i've re-activated my facebook account, gotten so much rubbish stuff i deleted many of the applications. i've started my economics revision already, though it's abit late.

2008-02-29T22:22:00.007+08:00

today school ended damn early sia, cos no training today! met darr for movie&shopping. ate at dhobyghaut mrt basement. the food is not bad, and quite cheap! free flow of soft drinks and coffee and ice-cream. darr ate like there's no tomorrow and as if she's under-weight, LOL. we nearly walked off without paying luh. walked to robinson to buy sports-bra, i bought a red one while darr bought a purple one, hurhur, cheap sia only $10. queued up for 'ps i love you' at cineleisure, but no double seats, so we walked back to grand cathay. gosh, we sat at 2nd row far side, my neck can break. somemore i was resisting my bladder from exploding for the last 45mins of the movie! darr was crying one minute and laughing her ass off the next, seriously cannot watch touching scenes with her, never seen a girl who tear so easily. right after the movie ended, i chiong to the toilet! after the movie i treated darr to secret recipe for dessert which can explode our tummy! today had so damn much girls' talk with her, hohohoho!

im so busy with the food!

my abs&thighs hurt badly now cos of the sit-ups and shuttle-run! darr said i can jump further than her and im getting stronger, hurhur! of cos luh, if not how i tame my husband next time and prevent him from abusing me?! lameshit, ashie didnt come school today, she damn lazy! today's lessons are so damn boring, except GP! i love GP no matter how boring it is! economics tutorial is so damn slack, we didnt even do our work. this is the first time class dont bother to do work cos it's taught by maykoh! i'll be going back to school tomorrow morning(saturday!!!!), to have GP consultation with RA and extra lesson with a senior! last minute free tuition! hurhur. after that gonna study with jiehui in school i guess. please whack me whenever im falling asleep! CT's starting next monday, kill me! i really dont wanna disappoint myself, or anyone anymore. the feeling sucks! who says SRJCians cant do it?! bullshit and lameshit!

i know nothing lasts forever, can i be your nothing then?
im sorry, but im really really contented with my present life, and im too stingy to change it. i've had enough of the emptiness you've brought to me in the past. let us lead a happy life, without each other. hello & bye, my invisible buddy.

2008-02-28T22:47:00.004+08:00

SIGHS! my napfa is only silver!
2.4km - 14.54min - C (hohohoho!)
shuttle run - 11.7s - C (super duper slow!)
SBJ - 172cm - D (2 more cm to a C!)
inclined pull up - 20 - A (no kick, hurhur!)
sit&reach - 45cm - B
sit up - 31 - A (thanks to jiehui!)
stupid SBJ, i dont like you luh!
i wanna push the fault to my invisible motivator!
he was standing 3m away from me, how i jump?!
what if i jump and fell? i'll be malu forever leh!
it's all his fault luh!
this is my last year getting a gold leh!
i wanna cry liao luh, was emo-ing the whole day cos of this!

we had no lesson for STAR, slacked in canteen with classgirls.
had arm wrestling, PY can never stop screaming gosh!
whenever the girls scream, the whole canteen will look at them.
how i wish i can dig a hole and hide luh, so AA, hurhur.
mary's strong sia, she won everyone and draw with JW.
i wont JW and ashie! im so strong luh, hoho!
classguys read newspapers whenever&wherever they are free.
can you imagine a bunch of guys reading newspaper in canteen?
the canteen looks like an old-folks home?!
and for the classgirls, the canteen looks like a mental hospital.

YW is damn porno nowadays.
she's starting to imagine her 'position' with Zn.
and she force me to imagine with her.
she said her 'Zn is stronger than Mn',
(WHICH I DISAGREE WITH THIS STATEMENT!
MN IS MORE POWERFUL&STRONGER!)
so her Zn will be on top of her, gosh!
she also told me that she wanna twice daily after marriage, gosh!
i pity Zn sia, hurhurhurhurhurhur!

we looked at palm-lines to see how many children we'll have.
they went to check-out his palm to see if it matches with mine.
like gosh, you people will never be sian of teasing me, right?!
inside the hall also wanna make me piaseh!
hmpf~

there can be miracle, when you believe.
is there a limitation to this?
because, you're my dream, and i wish a miracle too.

2008-02-28T22:19:00.002+08:00

爱有什么预兆　老师并没有教
想要每天见到你　到底是从哪一天开始
记得当时好天气　没来由的感到甜蜜
温柔是我的本性　吸引我是你的天性
给你关心呵护　不会只是一滴滴
l-o-v-e 想你想到我睡不着
l-o-v-e 见面时候说什么好
l-o-v-e 开始烦恼衣服太老
l-o-v-e 不要变成你的困扰
看看你的前后左右
有几个像我一样能耐
落落大方把情意表白
碰壁碰一次壁　再次再接再厉

2008-02-27T22:27:00.008+08:00

had maths test, i made a careless mistake!
sighs, dont think can pass already!
i totally gave up on one question, LOL.
nehmind, nothing is taken into account except the A's!

went for NUS geography talk today so skipped training.
yw jh bernice me were gossiping about some guys,
missthen eavesdropped, she enjoyed the gossiping too, LOL.
of cos bryan&all teased her about her bf, hoho.
mrsSim is nice, she brought marks&spencer cookies for us!
didnt know that geography can lead to so many career choices.
the refreshments provided by NUS is good!
had sushi, pizza, nuggets, super nice cream puffs!
yw&jh made me paiseh by asking me to take so much food!
missthen sat beside me during the talk,
and of cos she enjoyed some 'pats' from me when im amused!
where on earth do you see a student whacking a tutor?

sleeping beauties?

smsing her Zn?

the b_________ taitais!

yiwei is a good cushion!

yiwei shy sia!

im lazy, dont ask me to do housework.

从前从前，有个人爱你很久。
虽然那个人累了，但她还是会继续爱你。
因为，爱你，是幸福的。

2008-02-26T20:59:00.003+08:00

today me&sinne so suay!
P&VP thought we didnt tuck in, but we did.
VP realised that she has nothing to fault me,
so she said my sports-bra is too obvious,
she wanna me to wear lighter colours.
the uniform is beige, whatever colours can be seen!
where on earth do people wear white for SBs?
i wore blue at times, and it looks more porno than black!
LOL. im so lazy, slept from 3-730pm!
early dismissal for today, like hooooray!
no extra lessons, no star!

had my nafpa 2.4 test yesterday,
im impressed with myself, 14.54min, C grade!
improved by a minute!
and classgirls mostly did well, less than 16min.
jinwen did 12plus! ashie&mary 13plus!
they can go and bang wall, demoralize me only!
im so surprised that ashie&mary didnt lap me luh, hurhur!
now i know the techinique, just dont walk!
i wanna dedicate part of my success to someone,
who has been my motivation during my run,
he is my silent motivator, an invisible one. HOHO!

but you dont know how much i love you.

2008-02-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

我是爱哭鬼　我想哭掉对你的思念
看著镜子里面没志气的脸　然后越哭越后悔
我是爱哭鬼　我想哭掉对你的依恋
我也知道自己这样子不对　却还越哭越认真的可悲

明知道已没机会进入他的心了，我还奢望什么？

2008-02-24T16:01:00.005+08:00

喜欢和爱一个人有什么分别？
当你站在爱的人面前，你会心跳加速；
当你站在喜欢的人面前，你只感到开心。
当你与爱的人四目交接，你会害羞；
当你与喜欢的人四目交接，你只会微笑。

that's why i know i love you.

2008-02-23T22:39:00.007+08:00

today i went to melissa&rebecca's house!
the dogs are so cute&fat&lazy!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!
the older dog, sarah, slept & snored when i carried her!
she has got the same christian name as me luh!
no wonder she feel so comfortable with me!
forgot to take pictures with them, urghhhhh~

met darr & her sister for dinner, curry fish head, yummy!
finally bought my smash watch!
usual price $55, promotion $29!
chosen a colour that doesnt suit me at all,
but nehmind, it's time for a change!

2008-02-22T22:30:00.005+08:00

oh it's finally friday! finally!
CCA recruitment today, more than 80 signed up for rocmoc!
which is like twice as PAE!
thanks to J1s like ben melissa jinfang for helping out!
recruitment is so tiring!
have to walk around putting on a smiley face & be rejected!
oh gosh i hate being rejected!
had dinner with ben melissa huixin mary rebecca.
i introduced ben to huixin but huixin's so shy!
huixin dont worry i'll create more chances for you&ben! =p
GP's fun, as usual. talked abit of sexuality, hurhur.
going for service tomorrow, hurhur!

check out our medals!

slackers!

aslam & ric

the girls, except steph, hurhur!

ric is defeated by xiong

twenty-one is the best, he's my dream.
你是否只想逃避一个不对的人喜欢上你？
你就像云朵，占据了我的天空。

2008-02-21T21:50:00.004+08:00

went to padang today to witness the YOG.
well, singapore won the bid, like obviously?
it can boost singapore's economy&tourism.
secret recipe gave out free chocolate chip cookies! nice!
getting really really tired nowadays, im sleeping now!

super crowded, urghhhhh.

me & lianne

2008-02-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

today class had dialogue with principal.
he talked lots, and mentioned about pursuing dreams.
the first thing that came to my mind,
other than getting into NUS, is him.
yes, he is one of my dreams.
a dream, that might take me forever to achieve.
a dream, that i may not achieve even if i take forever.
i cant describe how much i like him, really.
but i know, he has not stopped running on my mind.
i cant and am reluctant to give up on him,
because i know he means too much to me...
no matter how much people asked me to give up,
and told me it's impossible between me&him,
i still wont. he's worthy of the wait.
many might think that im stupid&hopeless,
but what can i do since i've fallen for him?
he's every bit of my motivation,
his presence is too significant.
8months, and still counting on, i wish.
i'm the moon, one that is non-existent without the sun.
and you're my sun.

2008-02-19T22:48:00.004+08:00

stupid mary didnt come school today.
i really love GP lessons, brighten up my day!
shasha looks like the corrupter from NKF!
raymondandrew rocks!
i told raymondandrew he looks like mrbean!
class cant stop laughing, LOL!
he is a indian, but speaks malay and is a catholic!
so cosmopolitan luh!
had globalization DRQ test, sure die, as usual.
yokeming's really horrible during physics lesson,
cant stop disturbing me aslam quanfeng.
he extort sweets from me somemore! =(

look at the mess on my bed.
work, work, more work!

some people are just negligible, you're one of them, im finally happy again, like finally.

2008-02-18T01:06:00.003+08:00

went to darr's house today to slack, LOL.
she was totally engrossed with fixing her prepaid, bth!
had some girl's talk, told her my biggest secret!
well, it doesnt and cant matter that much now, can it?
guess darr's the most privileged person on earth,
she knew all my secrets, practically everything.

my back hurts badly again, sighs.
just finished my economics tutorial, i love economics!
kinda sad, cos mrTan is at re-service for 2weeks!
i want him back please!
spent quite some time wrapping v'day presents,
but it looks pathetic still somehow.

i was absent on friday and a7 betrayed me!
tutor: "WHO TALK TO YOUR PARENTS ABOUT SEX?"
class: "YUHSUAN! HAHAHAHAHA..."
tutor: "OHHHH YUHSUAN, HAHA..."
okay, i guess my family is too open to discuss sex?
my family members are like my friends,
though we dont go into the details, such as what poses,
but my dad'll go...
must take measures to prevent pregnancy... blabla...
as a man gets richer, he'll have a better sexlife... blabla...
i seriously think there's nothing wrong with sex education,
just not too detailed please!

2008-02-18T00:55:00.003+08:00

错的时间，遇见错的人，是一段荒唐；
错的时间，遇见对的人，是一声叹息。
对的时间，遇见错的人，是一场心伤；
对的时间，遇见对的人，是一生幸福。

一个人的早餐只是一个蛋，
两个人的早餐就是一顿爱。
一个人的拥抱只能抱住风，
两个人的拥抱真实得发痛。
一个人的快乐多么单薄，
两个人的快乐满出了你我。
一个人的痛苦苦得没有尽头，
两个人的痛苦至少有个人说说。

2008-02-15T01:01:00.004+08:00

感谢我不可以住进你的眼睛　所以才能拥抱你的背影
有再多的遗憾　用来牢牢记住不完美的所有美丽
感谢我不可以拥抱你的背影　所以才能变成你的背影
躲在安静角落　不用你回头看　不用珍惜
躲在安静角落　如果你回头看　不用在意
我怀里所有温暖的空气　变成风也不敢和妳相遇
我的心事蒸发成云　再下成雨却舍不得淋湿你

2008-02-14T23:54:00.009+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY~
today's PE is so happening!
we were thinking of phrases to express love!
do you have a plaster? because i hurt myself when i fell for you!
so damn cliché, but i like!
PE can be tiring luh, although only ran 2rounds.
but i hate PT, urghhhhhhhh.
im getting weaker, & my standingboardjump sucks!

JJ is so funny!
he took photo of aslam and edited it to become like this.

i think aslam must be thinking of proposing to someone,
if not JJ wouldnt have wrote that as captions luh.
of course there were more photos, but i wont upload it.

there's training tomorrow, ohhh im so tired!
my body hurts badly cos i've been straining my abs too much.
i've got to shop this weekend for v'day presents.
im like so outdated, but im really busy okay!
thanks sooooo much for those who gave me presents&flowers!
steph, lianne, bryan, ben, cerlyn, sharon, aSevenians.
ashie's so damn pro she made roses with tissue papers!
seriously i hate wrapping presents, but i shall try!

i wanna thank huixin soooo much!
ohhhh huixin i love you to bits!
she's supposed to hand in a love poem for literature,
and she stood in my shoes, & wrote a poem about how i feel!
i shall show your the poem below.

the love i feel, for you and only you,
can make you kneel,
with comfort or excitement,
i don't know which is the deal.

the love i feel, for you and only you,
your enormous eyes coloured teal,
makes me scream with thrill,
yet you don't know what's the deal.

the love i feel, for you and only you,
your graceful yet stuntful walk,
makes me stare at you like a hawk,
and yet you don't know that i stalk.

the love i feel, for you and only you,
makes me dream of frills,
a big puffy wedding gown feel with frills,
yet you don't know 'i do' is what i say i will.

the love i feel, for you and only you,
makes me burn with jealousy,
when i see you with all those seals,

yet you don't know how you make me feel.

©huixin

since eewhee named her ahem* as 宅男=ZhaiNan=Zn=zinc,

i've named him* as 猛男=MengNan=Mn=manganese.
my Mn is definitely better than Zn okay.
you see their figure you'll know who more powerful already!
Zn cannot compete with Mn no matter how they compete luh!
Zn has paid a forever rent in eewhee's heart,
but Mn dont need to pay me also can stay in my heart loh!
eewhee, you better admit defeat now!
Zn&Mn really very alike leh, both are transition metals, hurhur.
no wonder me and eewhee click so well luh.

2008-02-13T22:20:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
mary farted during economics lecture on monday!
me&xianliang thought it was someone from his class,
today mary then confess to me it's her!
gosh, mary's so good in pretending luh!
cant believe she looks so adorable but is so unglam luh!
now mary's so famous with her farting sound! tsk tsk.

today's a happy day!
went out for lunch with ashie mary to nearby hawker.
the duckrice is nice luh!
but i think the tehpeng's contaminated or something,
me&ashie had tummy ache after that,
and we bombed in toilet at the same time!
mary&huixin&sinne couldnt take the smell so they escaped.
had RA talk at concourse, so classic!
talking about edisonchen&___. HOHOHOHO.
who wanna the photos can tell me, i know the website!

training's tiring! so angry with myself!
i was one tile to completion of coach's route!
it's not a difficult route, but the last tile's a killer!

tomorrow's valentines day.
but im too busy so didnt buy any present yet!
hurhur, i love all my friends!
& i love my future husband, although i dont know who is he.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made,
they can take the music that we'll never play.
All the broken dreams, take everything,
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.
They can take the future that we'll never know,
they can take the places that we said we would go.
All the broken dreams, take everything,
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

2008-02-10T23:21:00.004+08:00

mahjong-ed at jiehui's house today! from 3pm to 9pm!
me&huixin lost $1.20, lance lost $2.50, qf won $5!
ohhhhhhh damnit luh! im sooooo unlucky urghhh~
next time i wanna play bigger so more challenging!
stupid huixin always keep the tile i wanna and let qf win!
i bet huixin's in love with qf luh! HAHA!
scully they're having some underground-scandal?!?
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! dont be shy huixin!
me&lance cant tahan huixin always let qf win so we gang up!
thanks huh lance you helped me so i lost less! =)
jiehui's dad is so horrible luh, he said i dont know how to play!
but her parents are really really nice!
uncle stood behind me see me play & make me damn nervous!
auntie's friendly&kpo HAHAHAHAHA!
she helped huixin to throw her tiles when huixin's dreaming!
HUIXIN WHO YOU DREAMING ABOUT HUH?!
had nice beehoon at jiehui's house, yummy!
shall go baking at jiehui's house soon!
urghhhhh cant tahan ber&lance. they PDA so much. /slaps
thanks to huixin&bernice&lance for your presents!
bernice give me damn stupid presents luh,
i look super malu when i opened it up!
lance's tigger is cuteeeee & huixin's marshmallow is sweeeeet!
seriously, jiehui's mum is quite cute&sweet!
no wonder jiehui's cute luh. got mother got daughter!

因为想一个人而寂寞
因为爱一个人而温柔
因为有一个梦而执着
因为等一个人而折磨
因为想一个人而解脱
因为爱一个人而宽容
因为有一个梦而放纵
因为等一个人而漂泊

2008-02-08T23:56:00.000+08:00

除夕
went for CNY shopping with pig&his mum,
although i didnt buy anything, LOL.
went to aunt's house for dinner that night, nice food!
mum called to tell me i got 600plus angbao from taiwan.
shall ask her to save for me, hurhur.
i needa save for my condominium&wedding! hurhur!

初一
went to aunt's house in the morning,
and met pig&his family for dinner that night.
received 200plus in singapore, oh im rich now.
mahjong-ed with pig&his mum till 11plus.
stayed in his house for that night.
ehhhhh people, me&pig slept in 2 different rooms okay.
i slept in his room while he slept in the guestroom.
we were supposed to wakeup at 2am to chat,
but i was tooooo tired, and hecked-care him, hurhur.

初二
woke up at 10plus.
had breakfast, went to temple with pig's family.
following on, went to museum to see a greek exhibition.
(pig's mum like this kind of cultural stuff)
headed back his home to take a nap.
me&pig went out alone at night for dinner.
had dinner at fish&co, had sharkie freeze!
it seems fashionable to celebrate birthdays at fish&co?
walked, shopped, chatted, joked like mad.
really touched when bryan&ben&mary called to wish me! sobs-
thankyou to those who wished me through sms&online!
im a happy girl on my birthday!
darr's in malaysia, glad that she sms-ed me.
luckily she isnt 'got colour no brother', if not i'll flatten her boobs!

1) get into NUS.
2) me&family&friends&relatives will be happy, healthy.
3) secret =p

okay, back to reality.
lots homework to be done, i guess?
but sunday supposedly mahjong-ing at jiehui's house!
bring money people, lets bet!
im gonna win cos i've double luck!
and im gonna be inside-out red that day = triple luck!
oh gosh, i feel old now.
let me remain at eighteen forever!

2008-02-04T01:58:00.001+08:00

dont judge me, if you dont understand me.
you dont know how much i tried... to forget everything.
dont haunt me with anything, please.
it might kill me, emotionally.
i wish i could escape from reality.
i wish i could feel less helpless.
i wish i could do something... to bring everything back.
i wish i could be emotionless.
i wish i didnt have a heart to feel it breaking.
oh Lord, save me, im willing to die to escape from all these.
i miss home, one that shields me from all this.

im glad that you didnt add on to my burden. but why didnt you appear on my mind anymore? love is too fragile, too hard to see, let alone catching it. that's why i aint doing it anymore. ceteris paribus.

2008-02-02T00:35:00.000+08:00

i wanna praise myself!
hurhur, i ran 12rounds non-stop on monday with yiwei!
I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!
also, i got back my economics test, 11/25! hooray!
although i failed, but only 1mark lesser than mary,
and highest's only 14/25!
now i've more love for economics, LOL.

i've been quite unlucky these few days.
i always fall asleep on the bus, and overshoot the stop.
LOL, so damn pissed with myself at times,
i just love to sleep too much.

have been busy with schoolwork, too tired to blog.
last night i slept for 12hours and didnt do work at all.
6pm to 6am, headed for school.
such a luxury luh.
good night, world.

you ain't that important after all. oh finally, it's time to forget the past, to forget about you. your wish is granted.

2008-01-28T23:33:00.004+08:00

如果这是我爱你最好的距离，我愿意永远的离开你
如果这是你给我最温柔的暗示，我可以永远的忘了你
如果这是我爱你最好的距离，我愿意欺骗自己离开你
如果这是你给我最温柔的等待，我可以孤单的走下去

2008-01-27T00:23:00.000+08:00

now mahjong-ing with wk wt vana. LOL.
just now i won lots when chatting with my childhood crush!
im so happy i get to talk to him luh!
first time i talk to him online leh! just got his email. hurhur.

went shopping with cerlyn today.
she's really a shopaholic! and take ages in the fitting room!
gosh i waited until my leg gonna break luh.
somemore she one time take like >4 to try!
her taste so different from mine, hurhur.
went to eat at the same thaifood, but different dishes.
after dinner, idiot cerlyn still wanna go to johnlittle,
but i chased her home, like FINALLY!
helped darr to buy sportsbra, $8 only, hope she likes it.
she cant stop sms-ing me from malaysia,
she think only she needa pay bills luh.

i love this zara shirt! thanks sinne!

i sacrificed my image to dig clothes for cerlyn!

our dinner! YUMMY!

hsuan cerlyn

2008-01-25T22:06:00.002+08:00

went to popular today, intended to buy a dictionary.
the price rose by $8 with an extra CD!
in the end i didnt buy luh, too expensive.
met darr at sengkang after her work,
borrowed some novels, think i'll read those tonight.
ate japanesefood at the foodcourt, not bad.
went to the valudollar shop, super cheap luh!
shopped at metro, darr was desperately looking for bras.
went to her house, got my FBT.
size M, it's super short and quite tight!
i feel so hungry now, sighs. i wanna eat noodles.
darr's going back to malaysia tomorrow,
leaving me alone in singapore, such a lonely weekend!
i needa get my butt off my bed and study.

the gossipers in SR's new library.

sleeper

爱在遗憾里更清晰，爱在错过后更珍惜。
有那样的一个人，当你第一眼看见，
就算必须身处天堂或地狱，也决意要随他去。

2008-01-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

gosh im so damn tired!
just had online mahjong with vana wk qf mary wt.
others took turns to play while me&vana full time!
wk took over qf after qf went to sleep,
and im an all-time loser, sad!
hopefully me & vana & qf will not be unlucky!
mary left the game during west wind,
people say it'll bring bad luck to stop playing during west.
somemore qf left during westwind in his last game,
he was summoned to bed, LOL.
DOUBLE BAD LUCK, oh gosh!
i think we've been playing too much these days!
should start studying, many tests coming up!
just finished my economics & geography speech, tired!
my back hurts so much, sighs.

had KFC at heartlandmall with jh yw ash hx mary.
wk called me when we're on the bus and they followed us.
ash they all were scammed by me HAHAHA!
im such a good actor, and they all believed my trick!

had PE today, did circuit, not as bad as 10rounds.
sprinted abit, feels good although i hate to run/jog.
PE's so much slacker compared to training!

from today onwards, you're no longer the guy i would be crazy over for. but it doesnt mean i dont love you anymore. i would do anything to make you feel less pressurized, that includes giving up on you. 'cos i believe in love. 为了让你快乐，我选择寂寞，也要很坚强的爱着。我不是不懂爱的脆弱，这一刻却放不开手，就这样执着，刻骨铭心地爱错。爱可能会让我变得更勇敢，我想要的明天，不再和你有关。就让我傻傻的执著，不放弃，就算我会爱错。

2008-01-22T23:49:00.001+08:00

im damn f-ing pissed by my hostel aunt ever since sunday. im trying to keep my f-ing temper down cos as taught by my parents, i must have good manners and i respect elders, but if i f-ing explode one day like how i f-ing used to, i'll make you f-ing speechless and lose your f-ing face in front of all other mates. damnit, what a f-ing mood spoiler. im already f-ing stressed by my alevels, you think that f-ing easy is it? dont f-ing try to test my patience, cos you'll never know what f-ing things i can say to you. you this f-ing ass. i dont even wanna fyou. oh am i too mean? not as if i care. i've never wanted to make my blog an unglam one, but pardon me people.

went to gym with ber&boyfriend & jiehui.
me&jiehui are not lightbulbs okay, it's ber&bf, LOL.
i wore jiehui's XXL FBT, and i think i look sexy HAHA!
i've asked darr to help me buy AJC FBT already, hurhur!
i used to think i've huge thighs, but doesnt seem so bad after all.
but i wanna make my butt firmer & thighs less flabby!
im depressed by the scar on my leg, leg's more imperfect now!
who has recommendation of good creams that can remove scar?
sighs, im still sick luh, running nose & my voice damn sexy luh.

aren't you tired? you're always running on my mind. 爱上了我不保留，受了伤却不投降，相信付出会有代价。

2008-01-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG!
wk introduced me to this online mahjong that's fun!
just played with alvana & qf & wk.
LOL, although im lousy, but managed to win some gold!
im like so dead tomorrow,
there's quiz, and im not done with my tutorial.
ohhhh, kill me please.

2008-01-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

rocmoc camp was fun!
we've two groups.
1st group was led by me&darian, 2nd by JJ&ric.
my group always win in those brainless games, LOL.

we had 2 amazing races.
one is to travel from clementi to sentosa,
my group reached an hour later than JJ's group!
HAHAHAHA, they've to wait for us to start the games!
markwong treated my group STARBUCKS!
2nd amazing race is inside sentosa itself, my group lost again!

we played many wet games at sentosa!
everyone keep throwing water bombs at each other randomly!
JJ's white shorts was blueish luh, HAHA!
im so happy i didnt kenna!
one game was so disgusting.
we've to lie on the beach in a straight line,
use our bodies to pass tomato, lettuce, bread & make sandwich,
and eat up the sandy, salty sandwich! my group won!
first time in my life a sandwich is so damn crunchy, with sand!

we've physical training every morning,
i over-slept for the 1st morning so didnt go,
2nd morning all the J2girls continue sleeping after wash-up,
so i did the same and didnt have PT at all, HAHA!
i think some J2s are are bonded after the camp!
while some were such a piss-off during the camp!
idiot mary left on saturday night for her service on sunday!

the night walk on saturday night was a scary one.
i didnt go, cos darian dont wanna go, he damn timid!
but i went in with darren mryong azu to pick up the ghosts.
i was holding on to darren's arms like mad, so dark inside!

FREAKY THINGS HAPPENED DURING THE NIGHTWALK!
1) steph&aslam were ghosts and they hid inside one of the bunkers. the J1s are supposed to walk from their rightside, but they heard footsetps from their leftside!
2) the J1s said they saw aslam wearing white when he was in rocmoc black jacket! all the J2s were wearing black on that night! and they said they see him at one of the corners in the bunker when he was hiding in another corner and impossible to be seen!
(i've decided to on my light and sleep tonight due to the freaky things that happened, im soooo glad my hair's short so i need not act as a ghost!)

we were too tired on saturday night!
the bus back to SR was damn quiet, we were all sleeping!
steph slept on my shoulder, and she snored/breathed loudly! LOL!
i washed-up quickly and intend to sleep immediately,
but shitted cos was having a bad tummy! shitted twice luh!
i was sick during the whole camp, sighs.
im forever trying to stop my nose from running away,
and my head from shaking too much. spoils my mood!
i just ate whatever medicine i brought, HAHA!

friday night i didnt sleep well at all!
the sleeping mat was so hard, and the room was noisy! HAHA!
shasha came our room to study with the girls,
and i forgot that i wasn't wearing bra until they reminded me!
and when i went to J2boys' room to borrow laptop,
i didnt wear bra either, LOL. i heck liao.
oh why am i telling you people about bras? LOL!
seriously, i wanna be a group leader again!

there're three tests this week!
monday- geography
tuesday- maths
wednesday- economics
anymore?!

i really really really miss you.

2008-01-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

click to enlarge

daryl & darian ; too tired.

ghost number one : steph

ghost number two : lianne

hsuan JJ;ghost shasha darren

baozhen eunice hsuan emme

rocmoc camp, 18th-20th jan 2008.

2008-01-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

GP was fun on friday!

we had role play and i was given 'oil company owner'
while he was given 'oil company worker'.
"MY BOSS' CONCERN IS MY CONCRN", he said.
i think it sounds damn wrong, but nehmind, it was entertaining.
whole class burst out laughing, for like dont know how long.
"THIS IS GOOD HUSBAND MATERIAL", tutor said.
weeta was laughing uncontrollably and his mouth the size of my fist.

celebrated sinne's birthday @ pizzahut on friday.
only bought her a small cake cos we're super broke!
ordered the group set lunch, was super full luh!
my account balance was $7 i cant believe it!
i've been spending too much! rocmoc jacket, camp, books.

but im rich again~ hooray!

ashie sinne hsuan mary huixin

2008-01-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

I want to touch you on a shore, kissed by the sun.
I want to touch you in the centre, where your past lays.
I want to touch you in the depths- of your bitter soul.
Let me know you... a fraction of your days.

give me moments
give me moments
give me more

give me glimpses
give me seconds
give your touch

give me this
give me time
give me us

give me moments
give me glimpses
give me... love.

2008-01-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

OH I HATE THURSDAYS&TUESDAYS.
super long school hours, today ended at 7 instead of 5pm!
physics made me die of boredom.
i only love economics & GP tutorials.
sighs, due to our horrible english,
me&qf&jh were showered with TENDER LOVING CARE.
that is -- private consultation during star period.
(we're hand-picked by our tutor okay, how privileged!)
oh gosh is my english that lousy? I THINK SO, HAHA!
shasha's so damn left out cos he wasnt picked!
(me jh qf shasha are from the same PWgroup)
we all depend on shasha to correct our horrible english for PW.
i dont care im gonna pass all tests from now on!
i dont wanna feel so lousy, although my language's neh good.
doesnt mean im a taiwanese my chinese's good okay!
but im definitely better than average singaporeans.
i hate everything about essays&comprehensions!
i took higher MT in sec'school cos i wanna get rid of MT forever!
english is enough headache for me luh.
my HMT's only B3 anyway, but im glad enough.

now i pronounce 'never' as 'neh', all thanks to jiehui's stupid joke!
i think it sounds quite cute,
and not many people realise my shortcut pronunciation.
nehmind nehmind, HAHAHAHAHAHA! so cute luh.

i'll be staying in school from friday-sunday.
ROCMOC CAMP! hooray! it's gonna be fun!
will be going to adventure, sentosa! hurhur!
but cant rest for the weekends, sighs.
will be lacking so much of sleep luh,
gotta catch up & finish all homework on sunday too.
there's integration quiz & economics test next week!
GOSH, i DONT WANNA FAIL!

TQF`
we're just two parallel lines, never meets. so i tried to keep everything deep down inside, and i tried and tried to fall for others. but i know others wont be your perfect substitute. because you're perfect, at least in my eyes. im sorry, i couldnt love you anymore, im too imperfect for you, but why do i feel so strong for you? why do i turn away whenever our eyes met? why do i pretend oblivious to your presence?

I don’t mean to scare you with my eyes.
Don’t mean to chase you away.
Just because I need too much.
Just give what you can... and i’ll pretend that’s enough.

2008-01-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

I AM SOOOO DAMN TIRED TODAY!
just finished my maclaurin series & GP.
cant stop yawning.
there might be maths quiz tomorrow, but i really needa sleep!
SORRY MR ARNUA. i'll see you for consultation!
tomorrow's a long day, i cant afford to doze off in class.

the J1s came for their 1st training today.
i think we've screwed up the activities & they seemed bored!
but some of them are really nice!
although they might not be cute, but i like their attitude!

it's only 1125pm, gosh and im gonna sleep.
nights world. hello dreams.

2008-01-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

happy 18th birthday polzai!
alcohol, M18, 4D, gamble, car, club.
soon, i can do all these with you!
( although we wont, we're goodies LOL )
on my birthday celebration must wear the blouse,
so we can wear couple shirt, LOL!

went to cut hair at darr's aunt shop.

my hair's soooo short now,
cer said im a model student!
studied with cer after her service and my haircut.
finished most of my homework, productive.
didnt really gossip until after dinner.
my handphone's good!
it's still full battery after a day's MP3.
just now im so pissed with cbox, it cant load!
yeahhhh, can go school tomorrow!

you're still my motvation. dont take away the least from me, that's all i have...

2008-01-12T22:58:00.001+08:00

went out with jh tkb cer polly.
celebrated polly's birthday!
rotted&gossiped at cafecartel, LOL.
tkb that auntie always dont wanna move her butt.
i pee-ed so many times gosh am i having bladder problem?
sad, im the only one in SR, cer&tkb in AJ, polly&jh in VJ.
drank the ice chocolate moo moo, so cute luh the name!
bought a minicake and a nice blouse for polly!
(actually im tempted to buy for myself bleh!)
we had a hot debate when deciding which one to buy!
jh&me won! cer&tkb wanna buy a pregnant blouse, LOL!
had dinner with cer at some ulu foodcourt at orchard.
but the thaifood was nice!
we ordered a $12 set meal for two.
it came with tomyam soup, kangkong, egg omelette, 2rice.
it was delicious! and the serving was big!
i didnt finish, as usual, HAHAHA.
when we're eating,
we're being asked twice where did we buy our food from, LOL.
cer that glutton was the last survivor, ate up all the food!
next time we shall go for sakaesushi buffet!

think i'll be quite lonely during my birthday,
it's the 2nd day of chinese new year!
i dont wanna be alone! i wanna mahjong!
someone jio me for mahjong please?!
and i'll have all the luck and win lots money!
someone please be with me during my birthday!
it's gonna be a memorable 18th birthday i wish!

gonna cut hair tomorrow, hooray!
i wanna look sexy HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
oh gosh somebody said i am fat!
(but he wasn't any thinner anyway! LOL.)

该忘了你对不对？ im sorry i was impulsive, but i couldnt help it. you're everything i adore. and i dont wanna give up, not yet. what is not mine, i shall fight for it. or maybe i shouldnt waste my effort?

2008-01-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

sighs, im so pissed with my wound.
it keeps bleeding like none of my business.
didnt go training today, it really hurts lots.
i dont care how you look at it,
cos it's my leg, not yours.
GP's really fun, i gave so many funny answers.
raymondandrew asked,
what does it mean when JJ and shasha are "good friends".
and i answered, OH YOU MEAN THEY'RE GAYS?
LOL, whole class laughed at my answer luh!
i think he's really a good teacher,
his lessons are enriching yet interesting!
i bought broader perspectives, i wanna B for GP!
gonna pay rocmoc jacket, so broke luh me.

meeting jh tkb cerlyn to celebrate polly's birthday tomorrow.
still deciding what to buy for her, arghhhh.
i dont care i wanna eat cake!
hooray, im cutting hair on sunday!

that was a stupid question, with a default answer. it's time to start anew & let go. i still miss you, though.
世界若是那麽大　为何我要忘你无处逃
世界若是那麽小　为何我的真心你听不到

2008-01-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

Basic Jeans
If you like to wear your basic blue jeans, not tight, baggy, decorated or whatever, you are content with your current status and life style. You normally wear jeans only when it's appropriate to do so. Sounds like a real gentleman or lady doesn't it?

Chocolate Ice Cream
You are a sensitive person and often find yourself daydreaming about your past and future. You are quite conservative and the values that your parents and teachers instilled in you still play an important part in your decision making.

Small and Simple Pattern Tableware
Tableware with small polka dots or stripes around the edges indicates that you don't like telling lies. You don't talk for the sake of talking and think seriously before you open your mouth to say something. You like to watch changes that occur over a period of time; you're patient and introverted. (im neither patient nor introvert although others are true!)

Black Car
You like to be mysterious. You appear to be a confident and calm as well as a very sexy person. You dress well and your outfits show that you are an elegant individual.

What's your personality love style?
You are the type to fall quickly and passionately in love, but will commit to a person forever when this happens. When you choose to love someone, it's going to be a strong relationship and nothing will come between you and your lover. But beware: love can turn you blind, and the rest of the world might cease to exist while you are in that honeymoon phase. When you come down from your high, you may find you have neglected other people and things that you love.

What type of personality do you have?
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

how come all the analysis seems positive huh. LOL

2008-01-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

the test is very true luh!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

type of boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2008-01-11T00:45:00.000+08:00

had CCA recruitment yesterday.
it was fun!
ask my J2 friends to quit theirs and join rocmoc, LOL.
i kept stealing sweets from bowling, hurhur.
their captain is the SLACKER benjamin!
met adriankoh during recruitment,
he said raymondandrew is good, i think so too!
i told him i'll try my best to get B3,
although he said its possible for me to get A.
(i doubt so luh!)
rocmoc didnt had much people signing up,
i hate the feeling of being rejected, it sucks!
hopefully second intake will have more J1s!
the 3D2N camp's next week, heehee!
ghostwalk! games! food! looking forward to it!~
lianne&steph will be the ghosts! ohhhhhhh~
hope there'll be a macho J1 to walk with me,
although i doubt so luh!
im the group leader, so i can get to know the J1s better!

didnt go to school today, sulks-
missed so much stuff i guess.
had one day less to see my friends!
just finished my geography tutorial,
left with economics, sulks!
there's traffic duty at 645am, sighs~

有一种爱叫做放手。 i've finally accepted the fact that i gotta give up. or maybe i should hold on to that hopeless hope like an idiot? love is blind, but loving you isn't.