i dont know which way i should go, whether i should trust my own instinct or practicality. sighs. im depressed, stuck. i dont know what i should do, i dont know if i should continue pondering on the issue, i dont know the future, so how?! when did i start feeling this way? when did i start making that my focus?! maybe, maybe, i would just leave singapore, leave everything here, as it is.

bad news, i lost my file! that includes all my recent tutorials, my donation card, my whatever secret inside which i've totally forgotten. gosh, im going hare wire in school, im often lethargic & feeling sick, the most important thing is, im losing my appetite! how can i dont feel like eating?! it's soooo ridiculous! studied alone after maths lecture in the library, i was distracted by something though, sighs! wewe jio me for macdonald breakfast tomorrow morning at 7am before our economics lecture, idiot woman. she has dont know how many eyecandies, i cant even remember their faces! i dont know how wewe can divert her attention to soooo many guys at one go, LOL. i bet that wewe can work as a paparazzi in future, she goes around taking photos of eyecandies unknowingly, then she admire them during our study sessions, giving us that ohh-i-so-wanna-eat-you-up look. hurhur, dont kill me wewe. jiehui they all super mean to me! they always run away when i want to tell them things, hmpf~ they practically ran away! i needa talk to prevent myself from suffering from internal injury okay, so women bare with me please. seems like the tough PE programme is doing sinne bad, now she's running faster and faster and i cant catch her! anyway congrats to sinne for passing her 2.4km, some credits goes to us too! fridays and wednesdays are lovely, we had such long break today, ate yoshinoya for lunch before sinne & jh & ber went to popular for their shopping spree, trust me, they can really shop in a bookstore. again, i didnt had dinner, sighs. im forever flooding darr's inbox with messages that are more than five pages long, hurhur, she's really my personal diary sia!

dad called yesterday, and told me mum wanna bring me & bro & sis to japan this coming june holidays cos they've got free tour packages, i rejected that idea cos i would rather stay at home looking after the dogs or visit kayanne, im sick of japan, ohhh i miss taiwan sooooo much! i must go back after MYE cos my air-ticket is due in june!

idiot, if you dare to do anything against me, i promise im gonna do everything against you to get whatever i want and whatever you want, though i doubt you'll ever know what you want, you're merely wanting what others desire, how pitiful of you.

if you cant risk losing somethng that you badly want, you dont want it bad enough.
who wants to give their hearts to watch them fade away.